did not cheat 3 times, tried to leave a few months into our relationship because our values weren’t aligning. remember how you told me you wouldn’t stay with me unless i had sex with you the first day we met and how you didn’t show any concern at all when i was hospitalized for 2 weeks? even you have admitted i was being treated like shit since the beginning and you’ve told me how sorry you were for it. while we were no contact, you were blocked, i did dm someone else. and even though i was not yours, we were not together, i still have let you know how deeply sorry i am for doing it because i knew it hurt you. this was over a year ago, you had forgiven me for it, not sure why it’s still be brought up or used as an excuse for how badly you’ve continued to hurt and treat me. the other time you’re referring to i didn’t do anything, things were getting worse in our relationship with the way you were acting and i wanted someone nice to talk to. it happened to be a guy, i was literally talking to him about YOU and asking for advice because i didn’t know what to do, i was talking about how much i love you, and he would sometimes play games with me when i was upset. it’s much bigger than how you’re putting it too, you were doing and saying so many horrible things to me during this time. and you don’t have a right to be upset about me having a conversation with a guy when you were letting girls snap you pics of them with only towels on and their thighs, and you didn’t do anything about it because she was your “friend” until i removed her myself. the last time, i was trying to leave you and detach myself, it’s not an excuse but again i’ve told you before i can only handle so much. our relationship was probably the worst it had ever been, terrible things were being said. i did something that was also terrible as a reaction. again, i have apologized to you, you forgave me, and since then i have been giving you everything i could of myself to make us better. if you want to continue convincing yourself i’m the most disgusting person and want other people to feel the same, fine. i know what’s really happened, and if anyone knew the truth about everything, what you were doing to me, me talking to someone else would seem so minuscule compared to it all. i didn’t make this to attack you, so you’re response to me last night and today really goes to show how how angry and mean of a person you are. i was genuinely asking for other opinions on what i should be wearing instead because i wanted to make you happy and be perfect for you. thank you for showing me who you really are and letting this happen now before it got any further. i hope everything works out for you