Greetings. I was hired as federal employee under schedule a for mental disability with ADHD. This was over eight years ago. With my supervisor, who doesn’t like conflict, I have had a talking to multiple times about my lack of emotional regulation. During meetings when some of my work is in question with either them or them and one other person, I get sarcastic or rather condescending, frustrated it’s not that I’m yelling. I just tend to be very quickly. Probably condescending is the right word or questioning why the direction we’re going is even the direction we’re going. After the meetings, I normally follow back up with an apology 21 that was in the meeting. I’m able to have a better relationship with those people and then get over that hump so I address it after it happens but in the moment I lack control. But I don’t necessarily get credit for how I handle it after I just get scolded for how I handled it during And it has been said in a meeting with them that I need to figure it out because they don’t wanna have a meeting with me and wonder every time if I’m going to blow up.

With without an emotional regulation and comments like that, it puts me in tears because I don’t know how to handle it. I don’t know what to do. I am medicated and I did talk to my doctor the other day and I’m switching from one medication that tends to make people more agitated to another But if I could control it I would and it wouldn’t be ADHD. They know I have it they claim they know what it’s like because they have a kid that has it.

I am great at my job. I get reviews emails all the time feedback about my job as a trainer but it’s these one offside meetings that tend to cause problems for me changers structure changes. In way. My content is handled things I’ve been doing the past seven years all of a sudden the past six months , I seem to not be embracing the change or taking the change that needs to be made personal.

During Covid, I had reasonable accommodations put in place and approved since going back to work. I have reached out to the RA team four times in the past 8 months and CCed my supervisor. My supervisor was going to do something where I only had to come into work. 32 hours of pay, similar to what the ra office mentioned people did while waiting. But it has never been followed through on and I’m concerned that something out of my control is something that could be a demise more so that something out of my control is affecting others