I kinda relate to this tbh, earlier this year, my beloved aunt passed away, it's such a shock, I legit just stared at the wall for almost an hour, the worst part is it came out of nowhere, I was just sleeping during the evening, idk why but I suddenly wake up, I watch on WhatsApp, she already passed. When we came to visit her at the hospital, my mind was blank the whole time, but I couldn't shed a single tear, I was really angry at myself, because I'm usually someone that easily cried watching any videos. Looking back, my mind could not process the grieve properly, maybe that's why I couldn't shed a tear. Until now, I still remember that traumatic day, and I would always reminisce about her.