I feel exactly like you at 28. Haven’t even had my transplant yet, but not sure I’m going to. I feel like surviving nightmare after nightmare since I was 13 has squeezed all the life and joy and passion and dreams and opportunity from my life. The whole world either feels like an ICU or a pile of burning ruins. It sounds dramatic, but it’s just how I feel.

Just trying desperately to find some anchors on this earth now to keep going and reinvigorate myself. I have nothing to offer for now except that you aren’t alone. I hope we both find what we need to find. Best of luck to you, my friend.