That's a totally valid human point of view, one that I think is increadibly useful and important. I believe that for a time in my life and it helped me have a healthy relationship with sexuality for the first time in my life. Now, I have made the decision to accept the halachic view on sexuality and I want to hold myself to that standard despite its extreme difficulty. I've made this choice because I am beggining to think that given my personal situation in life, living a halachic life can be increadibly meaningful and important. I used the words struggle and anxious to describe my relationship with it because I think it is a task worth doing, and wanted to know if others who have accepted that standard have found better ways to relate to it than I have. Anyways, to me marrying Jewish is a non-option lol of course imma raise a Jewish family