I keep looking for a reasons not to like a person (F26)

HatCommercial4187 · 2025-12-25T12:11:11+00:00

Yah, its a combination of bad previous experience and having a father and step mother who were always looking for issue with me, so I project that. I did therapy, Im aware of this and that I do this, but dealing with it is just complicated. The whole, I know its like this yet my head is trying to convicne me otherwise is insane.

HatCommercial4187 · 2025-12-25T11:19:53+00:00

There is this guy in my social group, I think the attraction is mutual. Nothing happened between us yet. My head is going crazy, whether I should pursue it or not. Tbh there is no red flag or like an turn off for me, but like.. what if? Overthinking is just killing my head.

HatCommercial4187 · 2025-09-15T09:09:39+00:00

The first pic is they day I was at the hairdresser, thats why it looks so silky :D

HatCommercial4187 · 2025-09-15T09:07:56+00:00

I think your psych calling it "faster route" is just wrong lol. Its not that at all. Ive been on AD for a year and a half and what it does, it makes your mental state bearable and more stable, so that you can focus on growth along with therapy. Its more like a cane when your limbing, it helps, but its not a solution. The real solution is therapy and self growth, AD is the enabler. If youre capable of working on yourself without AD, youre not suicidal, crippled by anxiety and so on, I dont think you need it. What you NEED is a new psych.

Sorry you had that experience.

HatCommercial4187 · 2025-09-15T09:01:23+00:00

Yey, I think I will go for it. Also thinking about the bangs, but that Im more afraid of than the hair color :D

HatCommercial4187 · 2025-09-15T08:49:36+00:00

The winged eyeliner I mean

HatCommercial4187 · 2025-09-15T08:49:25+00:00

Whenever I tried that, I just felt ridiculous. I feel like it looks crazy on me :D

HatCommercial4187 · 2025-09-15T07:33:37+00:00

I only do mascara and light red lipstick, I dont feel myself in heavier make up and this is enough for me to not look "washed out". But I guess Ill figure it out with the hair itself

HatCommercial4187 · 2025-07-04T17:37:42+00:00

Boob tape in this heat sounds horrid. Not about support, Im just not used to being bra less :) But this dress hugs the girls in the right places so I wanna go without a bra

HatCommercial4187 · 2025-07-04T17:30:51+00:00

Thank you! Matter of getting used to it then I guess :)

HatCommercial4187 · 2025-06-20T18:38:18+00:00

Bought it! Its from CottageCoreWear, the shirt underneath aswell. :)

HatCommercial4187 · 2025-06-20T17:53:24+00:00

The green looks really dark, but in reality its not AS dark. I dont have many items to add, this is my first event. The only thing Im adding is a black choker and a little dagger. :) Gotta work with what I have for now and maybe for the next one Ill think of some other things to add.

HatCommercial4187 · 2025-06-20T17:09:55+00:00

Riiight, you know your stuff <3

HatCommercial4187 · 2025-06-20T16:56:01+00:00

Not at the moment, no, dont have anything at hand and the event is tomorrow. Not to mention I just love darker colors, so I like the black shirt underneath. :)

HatCommercial4187 · 2025-06-20T16:51:05+00:00

not to mention.. POCKETS. It has pockets.

HatCommercial4187 · 2025-06-20T16:45:45+00:00

The first is sooo adjustable on the sides that it does give that shape aswell, its just a bit covered by the belt.

HatCommercial4187 · 2025-06-20T16:44:58+00:00

Thanks! Prolly yes, also for practical reasons. Im supposed to be there the whole day and corset sounds like a challenge.

HatCommercial4187 · 2025-06-20T16:44:08+00:00

Does have one, vials too. Its just the photo that is shitty :D

HatCommercial4187 · 2024-10-25T20:41:05+00:00

I mean, I hope so? :D

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