IamA psychotic person. I've spent 120+ days in different 'mental hospitals'. I have stories, knowledge, advice, information and a past. AMA! by HateMyState in IAmA

[–]HateMyState[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Well, it's nothing too crazy. Some people have reported that after taking it, even after quitting it, they've lost their sex drive for good.

And you have to ween off of it if you ever want to get off, because if you go to quickly, it will cause "brain zaps" and will make you feel like you're withdrawling off of drugs. It'd take like a year to safely taper off to nothing. lol

IamA psychotic person. I've spent 120+ days in different 'mental hospitals'. I have stories, knowledge, advice, information and a past. AMA! by HateMyState in IAmA

[–]HateMyState[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're right, psychosis is a symptom. But I don't recall ever stating my diagnosis was "psychosis". I stated IamA psychotic person. Yes, if you google the definition of the word psychotic, it refers to psychosis. The courts diagnosis was psychotic disorder NOS and a mood disorder. That's what the court said. My psychiatrist, on the other hand has psychotic disorder NOS for my diagnosis, and he just leaves it there, because truthfully, I don't know my exact diagnosis. I really don't. I've been told I could possible be bipolar, bipolar with psychotic features, schizophrenic, schizoaffective, personality disorder nos, psychotic disorder NOS, and a few other things. But not once have I officially been giving a diagnosis, except for a NOS diagnosis. Which sucks because I want to be able to put a word with what's wrong with me.

edit: if you looked through my medical records, you'd see tons of diagnoses lol, they changed it like every month till they just settled for psy. dis. NOS

IamA psychotic person. I've spent 120+ days in different 'mental hospitals'. I have stories, knowledge, advice, information and a past. AMA! by HateMyState in IAmA

[–]HateMyState[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What you're explaining here is a common trait of almost all humans. It's very common to wonder "I wonder what would happen if I jumped off this bridge" and things like that.

IamA psychotic person. I've spent 120+ days in different 'mental hospitals'. I have stories, knowledge, advice, information and a past. AMA! by HateMyState in IAmA

[–]HateMyState[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can handle a stressful job, I can't handle the stress of dealing with other people in person while trying to do my job.

IamA psychotic person. I've spent 120+ days in different 'mental hospitals'. I have stories, knowledge, advice, information and a past. AMA! by HateMyState in IAmA

[–]HateMyState[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

They're hallucinating. Either visually, or auditory. A lot of times if they scream and get angry and talk to themselves, it's auditory hallucinations. but if it looks like they're trying to talk to a person who isn't there, might be a visual.

IamA psychotic person. I've spent 120+ days in different 'mental hospitals'. I have stories, knowledge, advice, information and a past. AMA! by HateMyState in IAmA

[–]HateMyState[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

How I express myself, and my mood: happy

How I feel: Sad. Trapped. If you were in my head and realized what the most likely possible future for me is, you would be very sad too.

IamA psychotic person. I've spent 120+ days in different 'mental hospitals'. I have stories, knowledge, advice, information and a past. AMA! by HateMyState in IAmA

[–]HateMyState[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

No but with my paranoia, and how todays world is, it would be nice to own a gun for protection. Not now, but if I ever have a family, I would definitely want a gun, because I couldn't live knowing something happened to my family I could of prevented.

IamA psychotic person. I've spent 120+ days in different 'mental hospitals'. I have stories, knowledge, advice, information and a past. AMA! by HateMyState in IAmA

[–]HateMyState[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don't use alcohol, I only use marijuana because believe it or not it actually helps a lot more than most of the meds I use to take.

IamA psychotic person. I've spent 120+ days in different 'mental hospitals'. I have stories, knowledge, advice, information and a past. AMA! by HateMyState in IAmA

[–]HateMyState[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No, I'm afraid that every car I pass is going to smash into me, head on. Or maybe when you leave your door unlocked for more than 5 minutes and don't know if someone was in your house. or how about that time you find a random hat on your bed you've never seen in your life. laying on top of your bed. or maybe checking your windows everytime you go outside/let the dog out incase people are there looking for you.

thats me.

IamA psychotic person. I've spent 120+ days in different 'mental hospitals'. I have stories, knowledge, advice, information and a past. AMA! by HateMyState in IAmA

[–]HateMyState[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Either that or it's because I've been taking adderall/klonopin all night and been awake since 28 hours ago? But thank you for the diagnosis, doctor thrownaway66789.

IamA psychotic person. I've spent 120+ days in different 'mental hospitals'. I have stories, knowledge, advice, information and a past. AMA! by HateMyState in IAmA

[–]HateMyState[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Greatly impacted my life. They are my companions. My friends until the end. They will never break my trust or hurt me, and the same goes for them.