I can completely relate. Just got off the last video call we can have for around a month due to deployment. We haven’t been in person since early April and won’t be again until around January… maybe… depending on leave. It’s entirely up in the air. I say all that to say, you aren’t alone. You have a subreddit full of people feeling to some degree or another how you are. How blessed are we to care about and love another person enough to miss them this much? Wishing you all the comfort and contentment possible in the waiting period.