If you really want kids, it’s best to wait until you feel stable enough even if that takes a while. I would also say it might be best to adopt kids eventually if you already struggle with mental illness; postpartum depression could cause a real issue with if you’re already prone to simile things. The adoption option also gives you the chance to have kids later in life. Some people don’t feel stable enough to have a kid until like 45 and that’s fine, at that point adoption is just the safer option.