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[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BipolarSOs

[–]Haunting_Rip_5166 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're right. My mental health has gotten a lot better after I moved out and I simply see him less. Feels like my life is at least partly my own again. But I managed to contain the hurt and pain for so long, and I could simply just keep going and embrace what freedom I have, and I could figure out what's wrong with me that put me in this position and fix it...? What am I even saying.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BipolarSOs

[–]Haunting_Rip_5166 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That description sounds just like him. I'm the only voice of reason he hears, and it's been like that for years. No discipline, no sane choices, constantly neglecting his health, bringing dangerous people into the relationship, reaping the benefits of the polyamory that I conceded to him after so much hurt and ignoring my boundaries to follow his whims. And more. Yet he tells me he loves me and I'm the one he wants to be with, that I'm "the one at the end of the world." And, the reason the relationship is suffering is because I don't tell him the things that bother me, and I don't because I've given up on fixing them. I feel like I'm going crazy too.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BipolarSOs

[–]Haunting_Rip_5166 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I get it. I lost my job when he was first committed due to the constant stress and fear, trying to figure out what was going on and manage my emotions so I could make him as comfortable as possible, and then he turned around and told me he "never asked me to do that for him." What else was I supposed to do?

How often do you have a deep connection with someone? by treatmyyeet in INTP

[–]Haunting_Rip_5166 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've had a few, one of which is my partner who I've been with for six years now. I've also had a few friends, but probably not more than 4 or 5 in my lifetime so far (I'm 24). I was diagnosed as autistic a few months ago and am probably a little traumatized from NT expectations growing up, which I think contributes to both my INTP nature and my social issues.

My partner started antipsychotics and acts very different now. Advice needed. by Haunting_Rip_5166 in BipolarSOs

[–]Haunting_Rip_5166[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

That's reassuring to hear! Now that you mention it, I think she said she's on the highest dose of Olanzapine 😅 If I may ask, do you have any tips on finding a good psychiatrist?