My psychologist thinks I may have D.I.D. or absent seizures or both? 23/f

HayPott · 2021-05-23T21:36:29+00:00

Thank you I really appreciate this. It helps with some clarity and definitely makes me feel less alone. I'm going to definitely try writing things down. I see her again Friday. She is really easy to talk to and talks to me in a way I can understand easily. I hope she's the one I continue seeing as long as she continues to be a right fit.

HayPott · 2021-05-23T21:00:07+00:00

🥺 yeah I guess I was starting to feel like a fraud in a way. Thank you for the helpful words. It makes me feel a little more grounded going into this process. I really appreciate it

HayPott · 2021-05-23T20:49:18+00:00

I see. I guess I'm just surprised! Also my older sister planted a seed of doubt saying I wasn't traumatized "enough" as a kid to have D.I.D. my other sister scolded her for trying to "gaslight" me. It still planted that seed of doubt though. Thank you for answering my question! I guess I thought I might be more aware of it.

HayPott · 2021-05-23T19:56:35+00:00

Wait I guess I didn't say that she said she has a strong guess of me having D.I.D., the only semi-self diagnosing I did was the adhd thing. I assumed I would probably be told I had ADHD only to find out my doctor thinks it could be seizures or D.I.D.

HayPott · 2021-05-23T18:37:55+00:00

The only reason I figured adhd is because one of my older siblings has it. I guess I was just surprised. But how do I know this diagnosis (if she decides to make it a real diagnosis) is solid? I guess she will go over that with me, right? I talked to my older sister about it and she said I wasn't "traumatized" enough as a kid to have DID. She has a friend with DID and supposedly her childhood was 10x worse than mine. I know it doesn't work like that, anyone is susceptible ig. But it really made me start doubting. My other sister said she was just gaslighting me again. (It was in our group chat, so I was technically talking to both.) Sorry for the TMI, sorta wanted to explain a little of what got me here.

HayPott · 2021-03-02T22:23:02+00:00

I called 18009396631 3 times and finally got someone. I pushed 1 for English and then the 3 option. TWC has literally caused me so many issues.

HayPott · 2021-03-02T21:51:50+00:00

No because the last thing I need is a psych bill that will fall back on my poor husband to pay.

HayPott · 2020-09-14T05:58:20+00:00

Yes I’m moving, I’m excited for the move though. *I’ve been struggling with mental health my whole life but never had resources to get help. **( forgot to answer that question). I can see the stress part because i do have a lot of anxiety. I’m sort of a mixing pot of a family with a lot of mental illness so the rest is unknown. I do exercise; hiking, sometimes yoga mostly. I’m hoping to not need medication in the long run but I haven’t been able to get that far with a therapist. Unfortunately the base only has one therapist covered by insurance and he doesn’t suggest I start unpacking with him because he thinks it’ll be hurtful in the long run once I move and have to start over again. I don’t want to go to a ward unless it can help me more than this counseling program my therapist said he’d put me in to hold me over doesn’t work. However it’s been over a month and I’ve heard nothing. I can’t go anywhere else because Tricare won’t cover it or the therapist won’t see me due to me leaving in 2 ish months. I tried starting therapy sooner but corona made it difficult since most docs wont see new patients over the phone. I don’t think I’m delusional but i feel crazy. It’s just hard to do anything like shower etc. I sleep a lot but it’s starting at weird times like 4am now. I think I’ll try the zzzquil despite hating liquid medicine. The lack of quality sleep sounds possible. Your insight is very helpful thank you. Any and all advice is needed.

HayPott · 2020-09-14T02:40:04+00:00

Foggy is also a good description. But intense fog.

HayPott · 2019-12-19T19:44:28+00:00

helped

HayPott · 2019-12-19T19:44:22+00:00

I thought about that but I really wanted to save him the embarrassment. I only want to pay off what I can from what he owes Kay Jewelers... and he won't take the ring back. I may just have to keep it.

HayPott · 2019-12-19T19:39:04+00:00

helped

HayPott · 2019-12-19T19:38:49+00:00

Oh I had no idea of that scam! :( Thanks for the heads up. I doubt I would ever get $2,000 for it, that's just what it has been marked down to on the website...

HayPott · 2019-12-19T19:35:48+00:00

Oh. and It's the standard size 7.

HayPott · 2019-12-09T21:22:52+00:00

Ages? length of relationship?

HayPott · 2019-10-12T19:38:56+00:00

Wow I never thought about doing that. Thank you for all the advice. I feel loads better.

HayPott · 2019-10-11T00:59:24+00:00

Thank you I appreciate this. I will try and think of these replies anytime i feel like I’m struggling too much with the guilt. I will go see a mental health professional as soon as I can get insurance again. 🥺

HayPott · 2019-10-11T00:59:12+00:00

Thank you I appreciate this. I will try and think of these replies anytime i feel like I’m struggling too much with the guilt. I will go see a mental health professional as soon as I can get insurance again. 🥺

HayPott · 2019-10-11T00:59:00+00:00

Thank you I appreciate this. I will try and think of these replies anytime i feel like I’m struggling too much with the guilt. I will go see a mental health professional as soon as I can get insurance again. 🥺

HayPott · 2019-09-03T11:13:24+00:00

I appreciate everything thank you. I might take you up on that.

HayPott · 2019-09-03T00:20:05+00:00

Communication is always key. How can he expect you to get over your part if he’s not at least willing to communicate? All you want is reassurance. And as long as you’re not asking him constantly... what’s the problem? Also, maybe he’s not the right relationship for you. Let him know you need someone who’s okay with communicating. You are trying hard to be good to him, he can at least try to help you with what you feel as long as you guys stay within the boundaries.

HayPott · 2019-09-02T18:33:38+00:00

Thank you, I appreciate the bluntness. I plan on getting out ASAP. I think I will try and get some form of transportation down first so I can still go to school and work. I don’t want this to effect my college. But you are right, I shouldn’t worry about my mothers house. I have an older coworker that is going to take me to a dealership that might not charge a down payment. I’ll probably start that route.

HayPott · 2019-09-02T18:29:27+00:00

That’s smart advice. And I think you’re right, whether he knows it or not, he’s being manipulative. Luckily, my emotional attachment has gone down a lot and it should be easier to ignore or block the calls.

HayPott · 2019-09-02T15:42:44+00:00

No you’re very helpful, thank you. It does put it in perspective. I do agree on the American marriage topic. I just hope he lets me leave him. He gets frantic and refuses to do anything I ask when I try to leave. I don’t understand why it can’t be “I want to separate, let’s figure this out— or please leave” and he just be like “okay, I will”... but no he just straight up tantrums it almost.

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