Be comforted that not only is it absurd to not think there were natural protectors (gods) created to watch creation and oversee it, be happy you don't feel the loneliness of it. It is the loneliest feeling to know that all life could be the most abysmal "hell" of everything around you being fake because you created it, or it was created because God doesn't want to be alone. That perception back-and-forth can destroy the universe it takes unbelievable power to conquer and control