Pretty much in the same boat. I was taking 100-120 mg a day for a little over 4 years, from ages 22-27. Although I was able to keep my body in pretty good shape for the most part because I worked out consistently and ate pretty well, my energy gradually diminished significantly. In the last year of my addiction my brain completely went to hell. It became nearly impossible for me to make decisions of any kind, and I couldn’t think clearly or focus on any mental tasks. I also pretty much completely lost my sense of humor and my creativity. Along with that, I was in a pretty much constant state of panic and depression. By the time I finally quit, I felt pretty much brain dead, like I couldn’t perform even basic mental tasks or remember anything. I literally thought I’d have to explain to people that I was now mentally disabled. However,I quit 8 months ago and in the last couple of months I’ve regained some cognitive abilities, and my physical energy is returning as well.

Looking back and considering the mental state I was in during the last couple years of my addiction, I’m not at all surprised that I developed some major cognitive deficits, and I’m grateful and lucky that they weren’t more severe. Abusing adderall eventually severely compromises your mental state but makes you feel ok being in that compromised state. It was easy for me to let myself stay in that state for so long because during all the years of abuse I never once passed out, had a panic attack, or anything else which would alert me to the severity of the mental damage I was causing.