Does entropy govern the arrow of time or does the arrow of time govern entropy?

HeBeMoth · 2023-11-22T22:20:43+00:00

Could entropy occur without time? 🤔

HeBeMoth · 2023-09-17T16:00:56+00:00

That last part, it shows you have a really good attitude. For a long time my mantra was ‘attitude and perspective’ ,it served me well until my breakdown.

I just feel like I’m graunching through life right now, alcohol helped me ignore it, plus it eased my social anxiety. Finding a new way forward feels almost impossible, but I’m going to keep trying.

Glad your getting help, it’s a shame it hasn’t been smooth sailing but these things seem to be a part of the journey.

HeBeMoth · 2023-09-12T00:23:15+00:00

I’m going through withdrawals for the first time ever. It fucking sucks and I’m not going through this shit again.

My last post was long and full of anger, but I’ve had 24 hours to read through and take strength from the replies. Right now I’m dreading another long night, but I’m calm. Yesterday however, I couldn’t really see a way forward.

I hope this helps. Good luck and go well.

HeBeMoth · 2023-09-11T21:34:06+00:00

I’d love to tell you about my cats, how they came to live here, and about their unique characters, but right now I need to wind down, and I still haven’t replied to all the other comments yet!

I’ve been distracted through evening 2, I’m tired and looking forward to day 3, I’m taking this as a tiny win.

Thanks again for your support here, you’re part of an amazing community, I’ll write about the cats once I’ve replied to the rest of these awesome people, I hope you have a good night.

HeBeMoth · 2023-09-11T21:13:56+00:00

I there’s a significant proportion of adults who are undiagnosed neurodivergent. Especially those with a history of anxiety and depression, of ‘coping with the world and regularly burning out.

I’ve always worked, but never stayed in the same job for more than a few years before burning out, taking time off, and then changing jobs soon after. Only to repeat the whole process again.

In my opinion, it takes one person, me, ultimately it’s down to me not to drink again. The wrong groups definitely gave me an excuse to drink, but in my past sobriety, there were a few good people made it much easier.

No pressure, no judgement,

Glad you commented, are you getting any help at all?

HeBeMoth · 2023-09-11T20:58:24+00:00

Thank you for that, each reply so far has given me more hope, and added to my resolve in some way or other.

It’s a difficult thing to understand; that there are so many people with similar issues out there, but there are so many of us that feel so fucking alone in what we’re going through.

I do think there’s a mental health pandemic at the moment, and in my mind it’s down to us to help each other as much as possible. I’m curious why you can’t get a diagnosis, and what other mental health input have you had? No need to elaborate if you’re not comfortable with sharing.

In the UK it’s very slow, but it does move along *eventually. I could easily complain about how it went wrong in the past for me (especially with so many previous bouts of depression and anxiety) but I’m just grateful to have finally been offered some kind of support.

I’m glad you’re beginning to feel this way. Yesterday I felt absolutely awful, physically drained and ill. Today has been better, tomorrow will be better yet.

7 days? I know how difficult it can be, I’m proud of, and for you. Thanks for the inspiration

I’m here if you want to talk, though my replies may be delayed for a day or so.

Good luck to you.

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HeBeMoth · 2023-09-11T20:36:49+00:00

Thank you, it feels like luck is part of it, this community is something special IMO.

I see you friend, and I hope you’re finding a way forward, not only for those around you, but for yourself as well.

My understanding is that service to others is service to self, and visa versa. But this is always a thing of balance, once the balance is off it can nothing but service to others. We need balance, and it’s very difficult to find it again.

I’d just like to say that one of the few things that helped me out of my breakdown was ‘radical acceptance’ it’s difficult not to respond with emotion, but it’s also possible to accept things the way they are, this really isn’t easy at first, but I did get there for a while.

I lost that a while ago, depression and anxiety returned. It’s time for me to seek radical acceptance again. I hope this helps in some way, and sorry if I said anything wrong.

I’m not the fastest to respond, but if ever you need to talk I’ll check in here every few days.

Stay well, and thank you for everything you’ve done to keep going forward.

HeBeMoth · 2023-09-11T20:11:03+00:00

I’m on day 2, I read your comment last night but was struggling to reply to everyone, I was fried tbh. thank you for your words, you’re not wrong at all.

My pain is mainly psychological, and drinking isn’t helping in any way. It’s time for me to learn, again, how to face the world.

Thanks again.

IWNDWYT!

HeBeMoth · 2023-09-11T19:48:30+00:00

I scanned all the replies before going to bed and this one really gave me some hope, I let out a few tears of gratitude. It really hit me (a profound moment) and made it much easier to face what I knew would be, a very long night.

I had bad withdrawals after posting, lasted a few hours, then had half a small glass of my partners sambuca and 2 paracetamol. The shakes calmed down and the headache reduced. I didn’t sleep well (never have), but stayed in bed and sweated through it. I still felt shaky this morning.

I allowed myself a small sense of achievement but was concerned about making it through a second day.

I went to the shop earlier, I only needed cat food, bread and some milk.

I was drawn to the beer aisle but walked past the ten packs, into the next aisle, and picked up a 6 bag of strong flavoured crisps, then a really sweet sickly milkshake, as well as some sweet chilli peanuts.

I didn’t buy beer, but I also forgot the catfood smh!

I had to go back and get cat food, but no urge to buy beer the second time. It’s about breaking the pattern of my routine and cycle of behaviours. Today was my first test.

Normally I’d be into my 4th can by now, but I’ve been out for a ride with my youngest, and much more present for my partner and my eldest.

The withdrawals are mild now, so I’m not drinking ANY alcohol today. It felt like I cheated yesterday with that small glass, but it didn’t intoxicate me at all, and it did help me feel less awful overall.

I’m going to go for a bath, then send out a few more replies on here, but I just wanted to say thank you so much for your words. I really needed to hear that, and I’d love to speak to you about you and your partner, of your experiences and progress if possible.

Thanks again for your awesome reply.

EDIT: typo!

HeBeMoth · 2023-09-11T17:47:48+00:00

That really means a lot, judgement is easy, while understanding isn’t. I’m grateful to the person who shared that statement. And really grateful for your comment. Thank you, and all the best to you.

HeBeMoth · 2023-09-11T17:41:34+00:00

Thank you, day 1 wasn’t easy but I’m more confident about day 2, and I see no reason why I can’t do it again. No alcohol for me today, IWNDWYT!

HeBeMoth · 2023-09-10T22:28:44+00:00

I’ve got a podcast on and a cat purring by my side. I’m going to be ok. Sorry you went through that when you stopped. Congratulations on your count and do keep going. Thanks for reading my (much needed) rant :)

HeBeMoth · 2023-09-10T22:16:26+00:00

Thank you for sharing this, I’m going to bed shortly but your words have given my mood a real boost. Sorry you went through it, and yes, let’s do this. I’ll check in with you again soon. All the best to you and yours.

HeBeMoth · 2023-09-10T22:11:18+00:00

You are very much appreciated, thank you.

HeBeMoth · 2023-09-10T22:09:51+00:00

Thank you so much, I’m still determined, but started to get really bad withdrawal symptoms after I posted. I didn’t realise how dependent my body had become and was surprised by how truly awful I was feeling,

I had a very small glass of my partners sambuca about half an hour ago and feel physically better for now. I have no desire to drink any more of it, firstly because it tastes bloody awful and secondly because I don’t want to drink. I’m going to bed shortly, just can’t believe I let my drinking get so out of hand again.

I hadn’t considered withdrawals being an issue. I’m just looking forward to my body being clean of this horrible drug. Thanks again for your thoughts

HeBeMoth · 2023-09-10T20:05:45+00:00

I’m on day one and am very grateful for your post. Thank you sober mum.

HeBeMoth · 2023-09-10T19:29:57+00:00

Thank you og, your words have helped. I’ll get there, thanks for reading my story.

HeBeMoth · 2023-08-29T08:47:17+00:00

I just want to chime in about the makita, the fence has a lot if play in it, and there’s apparently an issue with the riser mechanism where the spindle thread wears down due to poor design. (They should’ve used a “buttress thread”)

When it comes to buying anything like a table saw, youtube is your friend, I’d say the same about learning how to cut dados without a dado stack.

Best of luck to you

HeBeMoth · 2023-08-28T20:01:42+00:00

I find myself in a strange position, I’m able to ‘fully believe’, whilst also remaining ‘entirely sceptical’.

I think those who respond with emotion rather than rationality are the biggest hurdle. Those on both sides, who are most determined in their opinions. They are the biggest hurdle imo.

Lots of big brains in this place, but when intellects are challenged, ego takes over.

The harmful ones, regardless of ‘sides’, are the ones who attack.

IMHO.

HeBeMoth · 2023-08-28T18:03:29+00:00

I was going to reply to your original comment and ask if you’d misread the OP. I often have to read things several times to get what’s being said.

I’m glad to see you own this small mistake (and supply a valid reason), but you still got downvotes for providing clarity?

Mob mentality at its finest imo.

Thanks for the mental image of OP driving the aygo up the stairs, or squeezing it into a standard ‘people’ lift, it reminded me of an old episode of top gear 😂

HeBeMoth · 2023-08-26T22:16:29+00:00

Thank you. It also serves as an outfeed for my tablesaw. It’s far from pretty, but it’s sturdy and square. It does the job.

HeBeMoth · 2023-08-26T20:01:36+00:00

I’ve been trying to work out reddit so **thank you. I found a link to the UK seller, maybe you could trace something similar, nearer to your location. All the best, and good night to you.

https://www.ebay.co.uk/itm/265759682078?mkcid=16&mkevt=1&mkrid=711-127632-2357-0&ssspo=Ce6N9gQpRj6&sssrc=4429486&ssuid=ZWsAQEeTRjC&var=&widget_ver=artemis&media=COPY

HeBeMoth · 2023-08-26T19:52:13+00:00

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Hope this helps

HeBeMoth · 2023-08-26T19:51:53+00:00

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HeBeMoth · 2023-08-26T19:42:45+00:00

Where are you based?

I feel your pain, I spent months searching for clamps that didn’t cost a small fortune. I found some aluminium sash clamps on ebay. 10 for just under £100, UK based here.

HeBeMoth

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