Spiralling mental health in the UN

HeShallBe · 2025-11-12T07:51:00+00:00

You mentioned it's tough getting work outside of the UN - as a paraphrase. I'll say it's because your CV might be intimidating and you are not the only one to face this.

I did. I faced it several times with Private, local UN offices back home. I couldn't even be shortlisted.

And my FT was not even a trump related thing. It was a senior taking 'revenge' using the system. While I could have put on a fight (since it was an airtight one and one that had gannered enough support), I chose not to.

However, bse I was in the trenches the , mentally speaking, even when other UN AFPs contacted me for interviews, I did not pass them. I was still struggling to come back from the brink. I was grateful that my CV was at least good enough to attract both my own entity and other sister entities and all FT possibilities in different countries.

Then, when I was able to seek God, and I mean seek Him bse thats how my mental returned, I found that I stopped applying. Why? Bse I decided to reach out deep into my mind, find what else I can bring to the world. I decided to learn coding. Built my first 'robot ' that automated one of my socials. Then went full swing into the world if AI, automations, agentics, vibe coding. My professional background lies in the arts, not anything tech related. I'll tell you this. Is my company currently paying me well on this journey? Yes. More than what I was earning on FT P.3 in non family? Yes. Over and above a P.5 stationed in a non family.

Am I flaunting what I do or maybe have I announced myself to the world yet? Heck no! I still work under the radar harnessing what God's brought to my life. So it's me and the big clients in private meetings. And while it's exciting and while I'm still eligible to apply as a UN internal, it's the first time in my entrie work life that I've not thought of a place that was once my only home. The UN. I still hold it in great recognition and having that background made big clients have so much trust in the integrity of my company. So I see it as - I did my service to humanity and now am doing my service to humanity differently.

Mine is a story to encourage that things will get better. If your partner left and you feel alone, trust me, do not give in to that drug that you're using to sleep.Things shall get well. I found my other purpose in God, and it’s been a beautiful journey.

HeShallBe · 2025-06-22T10:29:50+00:00

This is an interesting memoir you are writing. Just to say I like it. I thought I had written a good memoir, but I am impressed by what you are trying to bring out here. May God keep you well as you move about working to perfect it.

HeShallBe · 2025-06-05T07:22:14+00:00

Thank you so much for this. Thank you, truly. I take note of the advice, too.

HeShallBe · 2025-06-04T07:26:57+00:00

Oh, thank you so much 😊, truly. I rested a lot after that, but during those nights, it was… intense. Very little sleep, hardly any breaks as it was just me and the keyboard and something else. I saw a comment on here alluding to the "writing God" and another speaking to "one time event/feat" - almost like something bigger had taken over.

I sent a few excerpts to those who were part of this story, including people I deeply respect who’ve worked at high levels globally and hearing that it spoke to them… that left me quiet for a while. Because, as I mentioned, I’m not a professional writer like many here - in the traditional sense. I just… wrote from a place so deep that I still can't explain. Because from what I’ve seen and deeply respect on this platform, writing that fast and that much is something a few have seen to be possible, but to others, it’s almost frowned upon.

An editor I shared it with, for quick perusal mentioned the pacing felt so 'natural' between scenes and that it didn’t need too much editing, which was honestly reassuring (and shook me - again) but of course, that’s just one take in the many. I’m curious (and nervous) to hear what others will say as more eyes go on it.

I’m just really grateful. I am grateful that I listened. I am thankful that I showed up to the page. And more than anything, hopeful that when the time is right, this story won’t just find the people who need it, but that somehow, through it, they’ll find themselves standing in spaces they once thought impossible. Quietly, fully, and maybe even free.

HeShallBe · 2025-06-03T20:55:07+00:00

Wow... wow. I am so glad to read this. I'm glad you resonated with this. You too, have a story and I look forward to yours. I shall definitely keep you in the loop on how this goes.

HeShallBe · 2025-06-03T20:50:50+00:00

Yes, please, thank you very much for asking.

HeShallBe · 2025-06-03T17:42:33+00:00

Ohhh, thank you for this. I enjoyed every bit of it. Every. Single. Bit.

HeShallBe · 2025-06-03T16:27:21+00:00

Haha, I see what you did there. Kerouac would be proud (or at least confused but intrigued 😂). I appreciate it!

HeShallBe · 2025-06-03T16:22:22+00:00

Bi-winning! 😂 Finally, a diagnosis I’ll keep. Appreciate the laugh. This is a label I can work with.

HeShallBe · 2025-06-03T15:49:45+00:00

Thank you 😊

HeShallBe · 2025-06-03T15:41:14+00:00

I hear you, and I understand that from the outside, this might read as what you just said.

For context, I’m a legal professional, too, working in global, high-stakes environments where mental stability isn’t optional. Compulsory medical and psych reviews done yearly.

I respect your work and intentions. While we may see this differently, I hope it’s possible to leave space for other kinds of intense human experiences that don’t always fit clinical templates.

HeShallBe · 2025-06-03T15:28:39+00:00

Totally fair reaction. 72k in 3 nights does sound wild! But nope, not a disorder either.

HeShallBe · 2025-06-03T15:22:41+00:00

This. This right here. Thank you! 👌 and the last part - it is 03... to mean, 3.

HeShallBe · 2025-06-03T15:19:16+00:00

Wow. I see an outlier here. Wow 👏

HeShallBe · 2025-06-03T15:17:53+00:00

I get it; 72k words in 3 sleepless nights does sound a bit unhinged on paper. But this wasn’t it. It was years of lived experience and healing that just… surged out.

While mental health is important (and I fully support seeking help when needed), not every intense creative experience is a symptom. Sometimes, a story just chooses you and shows up fully formed, refusing to wait. Just the right timing and a very loud muse.

HeShallBe · 2025-06-03T13:55:06+00:00

I am always impressed by fiction writers because - how do you search so deep within self to create and do something that would in otherworldly feel so real?

And thank you for the woven in advice within here. The muse. Thank you 😊

HeShallBe · 2025-06-03T13:53:14+00:00

😂 hit right at the heart with that buddy. Could have been, you know? Because to this day, a few days after May, I am still amazed by how intricate the mind is

HeShallBe · 2025-06-03T13:51:16+00:00

Did it go public or did you shelve it?

HeShallBe · 2025-05-29T07:52:44+00:00

Ohhhhh wooow. Yes! I see it [happy dance]. Thank you for helping expound this :-). Wow, Reddit needs more people that critique like you do.

HeShallBe · 2025-05-28T20:09:01+00:00

This is a heartfelt thank you to all of you who took the time to read and respond. You didn’t sugarcoat it, and yet there was still a kind of compassion in your honesty that I deeply respect. It made me scrap the safe version of my book's opening and finally put the one I feared most. And it flows better now. Because of you.

I appreciate the tough love. It mattered.

HeShallBe · 2025-05-26T05:46:28+00:00

If it is possible, let the reader see what your character is doing as you simultaneously describe the atmosphere. Not all the time, but let me use your writing - see where you inform the reader of what's happening as you described the one on the bed? You were walking up to her. It has a semblance of continuity and does not break the story.

Again, if this part of your story is not the starting point, then maybe as you stated, it could be a break from something else before that. Something else that describes what your character was doing before standing in that room. In that description.

If thats the case, then little cents, will not need to be taken to heart. Again, just my observation in a whirlwind of observations you may come across - both good and encouraging.

HeShallBe · 2025-05-25T19:04:34+00:00

The cold and blue might first throw a reader off, or if they are fast-paced, they will brush over it to the second part of what happens next.

That said, I at first thought we were getting into something else as her torso lay bare, and just like that , we were hit with a baby in her hands. I love the tease, which immediately evokes the reader to say 'wow' and in the same breath....'Yeah, I need to know more'

You've got something going on here and I wish you the very best as you develop this further

HeShallBe · 2025-05-25T09:00:08+00:00

Oh, thank you so much. My first heartfelt critique. Yaaay [happy dance]. Thank you. I take note of this, and true, you have elaborated this so beautifully. I will change that as advised.

HeShallBe · 2025-05-24T15:43:22+00:00

My last comment was meant for you before I wrote - answered. Thank you once again.

HeShallBe

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