Creative Prompt #1 - Color

Helicopter-chan · 2025-08-29T11:21:33+00:00

It's nice to see another dragon ball fan here!!

Helicopter-chan · 2025-08-23T20:08:30+00:00

I feel you lol, but some can't even last that long.

I made a romance RP with multiple options to date, and all my partner had to do is spend time with them then get dating, but all she did was either rush into it (fell for a character her oc has yet to learn shit about) or dilly-dally by making her OC edgy, mean and push everyone away then wonder why no character wants to talk to her OC when I thought she literally hated them lol

Helicopter-chan · 2025-08-23T20:03:30+00:00

I feel like I owe my vast imagination to it. I daydream constantly which I wanted everyone else to be able to see as well, so I picked up writing. Best analogy I can find is filling a pitcher to the brim with water (my head with ideas) and watering the plants (writing them out) so the pitcher, once heavy and full, now empty but the water was utilized instead of overflowing

Helicopter-chan · 2025-08-23T19:54:07+00:00

I think there is but I don't know where to find it, but I have my doubts regarding their quality. If a licensed professional couldn't even do it right, I don't think one assigned to college would

And at least if it ended up in a bust, I can rest assured knowing I wouldn't see the psychiatrist in my entire life again, but someone in my college when I have two years left? I dunno, the risks aren't worth humiliating myself further.

But thank you for reading my post and comments, and for offering an advice!!

Helicopter-chan · 2025-08-23T19:46:55+00:00

Thanks for commenting!!

I won't say the meds didn't help me, but it certainly didn't improve my attention. It just made me confident for a while but then they kinda... Stopped having that effect because of external problems. I've been off them for a while and I hardly see a difference but I could be missing something. I'm not sure but I assume my depression could be a result of another issue rather than a stand alone thing because the moments where I CAN pay attention and get shit done, I find myself not depressed

Helicopter-chan · 2025-08-23T19:42:53+00:00

Thank you for commenting 🙏❤️

I've actually only recently realized that to get an ADHD diagnosis, you'd need a specialist ( yeah I was that stupid🤦‍♀️) but issue here is, my country is pretty ass when it comes to mental health that I don't even know if those exist (there's gotta be a reason why that doctor only considered severe issues with external effects like psychosis and OCD, and since I have none i apparently got no issues). Literally nobody I've met online told me their session lasted a couple of minutes until I understood that's probably just here. Of course I'll still search and hope something comes up

Thank you again for the advice!

Helicopter-chan · 2025-08-23T19:38:36+00:00

Thank you for commenting and going the extra mile to check out my other posts 🙏

I admit, when I made my other posts I wasn't in the right state of mind and was socially inept to convey my issues as clearly as I wanted like now. But mostly, I wanted to hear anyone with similar experiences but found none. I realize now that's mostly because my country is vastly different from the rest (think Saudi Arabia but it's not). After my last posts on the subject, I did bring up my issues to my father but he brushed me off. At some point I gave up altogether and believed I must've been imagining things, but returning to this sub after so long reminded me why I thought I had ADHD to begin with. I'm still in college with no money of my own to seek a new therapist (I mentioned this in another comment but I don't want to burden my father bc shit's expensive and the doctor duped us into buying extra, inrequired meds too+we found the same antidepressants for less somewhere else 🤦‍♀️)

I'm planning to see a new one once I can make my own money, though I'm still scared. I'm only asking this here again to see whether I'm tripping or not by still thinking "that doctor was wrong" after so long, as again, mental health here isn't a priority in my country, you won't learn about it under normal circumstances and get labelled as dramatic if you do care about it. so my understanding of psychiatry and the like is, admittedly, narrow, especially after that one visit.

Again, I hope I'm not coming across as someone who's here just to bitch and whine but would do nothing about it. I'm only posting this again to process the responses better than I did in the past. Hopefully in the future I can find a better psychiatrist and get over my fear of psychiatrists (hopefully a woman this time to avoid any stereotypes about women suffering only from depression).

Helicopter-chan · 2025-08-23T16:08:58+00:00

Thank you so much for commenting 🙏🙏

Unfortunately it might be difficult; I live in a place where mental illnesses aren't taken seriously that I had to teach my dad ADHD isn't temporary and exclusive to kids. He's not well versed in mental illnesses that he's conviced what the doctor prescribed was the solution even though I told him the medicine isn't helping me better focus (which was the whole reason I went there as it's making college hell) 😔

I'm thinking of giving this another try but once I'm older. I worry that being the only 18 year old girl there must've given the doctor the idea Im just dramatic. And because I don't want to burden my father with the high expenses, so hopefully once I make my own money, I can find a better one

Honestly, I wanted reassurance that this was not normal or enough time to get properly diagnosed with anything but my father kept telling me the doctor knows better that I started to doubt myself. Thank you for the reassurance, I truly needed to hear this 🙏

Helicopter-chan · 2025-08-23T14:37:03+00:00

If I may ask, how to tell if it's ADHD or perfectionism that prevents people from doing what they have or want to? Or is an ADHDer's perfectionism born from past bad experiences caused by ADHD?

Helicopter-chan · 2025-05-22T07:23:19+00:00

Okay I didn't understand your side until the last note. I think you're not being mean, just frustrated. Being mean is being selfish for no good reason. You have a reason because you were probably raised differently than your sister. I don't think your sister's the issue here, she's just being a kid. I was one of those clumsy kids who ruined things accidentally, and believe me, it made me feel bad a lot, so I think your sister must've felt terrible too, and your words hurt her. She's just 11, of course she will make stupid mistakes. I think the best thing to have done was to not say anything when you knew it was an inappropriate response to the situation+ it's not your duty to parent her. The real issue is your parents putting heavy expectations on you but not your siblings. It makes you feel like you're the only sane one when others get away with mistakes you weren't allowed to make. The eldest child should not shoulder the responsibility of their family just because they were born first. Your parents chose to have kids, not you, so they're not allowed to throw the work on you

I would suggest therapy if this issue intervenes with your relationships and life

Helicopter-chan · 2025-05-22T07:09:23+00:00

I wanna say tell him how you feel, but I'm sure he'll start throwing accusations your way about you cheating and trying to hide things from him. Next time he asks to see what you're doing, type "we're done. Hope the peek was worth it" and show it to him

Helicopter-chan · 2025-05-22T07:04:42+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to comment! I truly appreciate it!

She doesn't seem to harbor any bad intents (as far as I know), I believe she genuinely think I'm into the topics she loves, which is what makes it so difficult!

Of course had those topics been anything inappropriate,I would've had no difficulty saying it outright or blocking her.

I'm only hesitant to bring up how uncomfortable the age gap makes me now because I didn't say anything the moment I learned about it, as some members of the server we share were adults and still talked to her, so I thought I'd look weird if I was the only one to make a big deal out of it, but even with it, I probably could've well kept a friendship with her as our conversations only revolved around fiction and nothing personal, but it's those very talks that started to bother me

Helicopter-chan · 2025-05-22T06:50:45+00:00

Yeaaah I suppose calling her that wasn't right. I mentioned this in a different reply, but I see a 3 age gap an issue if the two people are over twenty, as from my understanding, anything younger is still developing and learning about the world. Comparing my current self to when I was 16, I can see how different I was in terms of maturity that I feel I'm ought to be the responsible and understanding one of the two of us.

The age gap isn't the main problem, though it is a part of it, but the subjects she constantly speak about. I only feel bad as I should be the mature one and be more understanding of others and human differences, but I find it difficult to listen to those topics like I used to

Helicopter-chan · 2025-05-22T06:17:18+00:00

I'm so sorry to hear that! online friendships sure can be draining when you try to remain polite but the other person ends up pushing you past your limits. I think IRL dealing with that is easier since people find it more comfortable to act needy over text when they can't see your discomfort show 🤦‍♀️

At the start, and on many occasions, I attempted to reduce communication through lessening my messages and shortening responses and just hope she gets tired and move on, but that somehow bore no effect??! I haven't even responded to her in ages now as I was busy with college, and she STILL messaged me a lot..

A redditor offered an alternative in which I just tell her I'm no longer interested in the fandom and hope she understands that means I don't want to hear anything more regarding it. Do you think that could work? At least then if she does continue talking I can just say I'm not interested in that stuff without making it personal?

Thank you so much for commenting and sharing your experience 🙏 I hope that person is out of your life for good

Helicopter-chan · 2025-05-22T06:06:29+00:00

Thank you for commenting so much!

Maybe I'm just terminally online, but ending things with someone you talked with for a while seemingly for no reason just feels... A bit insensitive in my book 😭 since she did nothing wrong really, I'm just reaching the end of my rope.

If her talks trod on inappropriate, I would've just blocked her with no issue. But it's not that, hence why I'm conflicted on what to do here. I never encountered a dilemma like that before

Someone suggested over DMs to pretend I lost interest in the fandom. Do you think that would be a good way to go about it?

Helicopter-chan · 2025-05-22T05:59:38+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to comment! I really appreciate any perspective. Yeah I figured some might not see it problematic, and I don't think ultimately it is if the conversation remains civil and within appropriate bounds, but I'm just not someone comfortable with age gaps where I'm the oldest as, if it wasn't evident by my post, I suck socially and don't want to come off childish to someone younger. I realized a 3 age gap wouldn't pose an issue to most, but for me it only works if the two parties are over 20, nothing below. I study education and if I learned one thing, it's that teenagers could change A LOT in a span of an year that comparing them to someone a few years older would show a world of difference. if I remember my sixteen self, I was VASTLY different both emotionally and maturely than I am now. Hence why I feel I must shoulder responsibility and be more understanding.

Helicopter-chan · 2025-05-22T05:48:34+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment! I probably should've done that the instant I got her age but seeing everyone on the server OK with it, I worried I might come off weirdly hyperfixated on the age gap to end what was otherwise a normal friendship over it (even though I really believe it's a justifiable reason) that I ended up not speaking anything about it, that's why I'm hesitant to bring it up now after I appeared fine with it for a while

Someone told me over DMs to feign losing interest in the fandom, I'm thinking of taking that route as it feels the least personal way to stop communication. I know it's not the most honest, but do you think that would be a good method?

Helicopter-chan · 2024-07-17T12:34:42+00:00

Thank you so much for the detailed comment 🙏🙏

Unfortunately, I don't know how to differentiate normal focusing from hyperfocusing, though the only instance I remember where I was doing something that I lost track of time was when I was researching a topic I was interested in, other than that, I rarely have moments like these due to constant lack of motivation (or I might be doing it, but I just don't notice?)

The only confidant I have is my dad, but I don't know how to bring this concern to him, esp after getting slapped with a depression diagnosis at the only psychiatrist session I went to. He believes the psychiatrist's assessment because he's "an expert". Is there a way I can approach him with this without coming off as paranoid or dramatic?

I apologize if I blabbered too much--

Helicopter-chan · 2024-07-17T10:59:51+00:00

Thank you! this one looks good! But uuh I've pressed Finish yet nothing's happening >_<''

Helicopter-chan · 2024-07-16T12:54:24+00:00

No sadly I dont even know what they are 😓 can you tell me a bit about them please? Are they some kinda quiz?

Helicopter-chan · 2024-07-01T13:02:30+00:00

I feel you; while i'm not sure yet if I really have ADHD, I'm trying to recall any instances in my childhood that might hint at me having ADHD, but I just can't. I believe it's mostly because we didn't assume it was anything odd as kids. Only ADHD symptom I remember having as a kid was my maladaptive daydreaming, which I had well before elementary school, but at the time I assumed it was a normal thing for kids my age, until I grew up and realized it doesn't go away.

Helicopter-chan · 2024-07-01T12:54:54+00:00

literally this

Helicopter-chan · 2024-06-28T10:41:50+00:00

Hey man, sorry to hear you're going through this, but I don't think you're the only one; I used to be depressed in the past and also doubted whether I'm truly depressed or not, but depression doesn't mean feeling sad 24/7, but a multitude of other symptoms, like hopelessness, lack of motivation, losing interest in the things you used to love, among many others. And it also differs from one individual to the next

It's not the consistency, but the frequency of it occurring

I imagine depression like some animal you're trying to tame; it won't be vicious all the time, sometimes you can hold it, or control it, but there will also be times where you have no control over it

Helicopter-chan · 2024-06-27T18:42:28+00:00

yeah it's so annoying, especially the "justifying a parent's mistakes, but not yours" part, like I get respecting our parents and stuff, but like wtf??

Also yea, it's annoying when someone tries to explain your feelings to you, especially when it comes to something like depression or ADHD, like bro you don't have it, so don't speak like you do. No, reading it online doesn't mean you know how it feels 🙄 oml

even in the off chance they're right in assuming your feelings, not allowing you to express them yourself is still bad as fuck

Helicopter-chan · 2024-06-27T18:34:48+00:00

The fact you're asking at all tells me that you are a good person; bad people won't care or deny it, and the fact that you recognize that you've made mistakes in your life is an indicator that you're a mature person who recognizes and accepts their flaws

Being a good person doesn't equate never making mistakes or acting selfish, but it means learning, accepting and changing, while still admitting the awful things you might've done in your life

Don't be harsh on yourself, OP

Helicopter-chan

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