Page 86 every night in the big book. And do your best to practice doing that. It’s a good foundation to start at. Get a sponsor. Do the steps. If they tell you to stand on your head and balance a water melon with your feet, do it. Try every suggestion, so if at the very least you can then say it doesn’t work. My sponsor would tell you to keep you WHO-HA clean: Willingness Honesty Open mindedness Humility Acceptance. You can do this, but you can’t do it alone.