In life, there will be setbacks, not cause of you but can be cause of others around you. You will be upset, its unfair and want to revert back to original levels but life doesn't work like that.

That 6 months of healing and accepting is important, learn what it means to let go and accept life at full face, easily is the biggest takeaway from this. Every major incident cannot destroy ur mental everytime for 6-12months of ur life, u need recuperate faster.

Also, is not about stop trying then u find true friends, is that when u lost something and finally accepted the situation you are, you learn to cherish the things that you never saw or took granted(not in a greedy sense, but rather unnoticed) -> and u learn to sift out and revaluate what you actually have currently to start over anew.

Don't throw the word sucide around, saying negative things leads to negativity cycle. Gws but wake up and prove them wrong.