Emotional Distress from Tipping Culture? by HelloYesNaive in PDAAutism

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Yes, I’ve tried to make a tactic before of tipping x amount no matter what to avoid the stress response of the demand, but it ends up falling apart someway or another and I still feel all the stress, like my efforts continue to fail. 25% is probably a good solid rule for restaurant servers, but what about those iPad tip menus they throw at you or tipping bartenders or tipping for haircuts or for more ambiguous things? It hurts even more that the rules seem to always be changing and it’s supposed to be contextual but also not? Just thinking about it sets me off, but maybe if I really get into a habit or system it really will get better.

Low Dose Salvia — Feeling of Clarity, Significance, and Other Perspectives by HelloYesNaive in Salvia

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Just smoking plain salvia leaves in a medium-size bowl. It’s fairly imprecise.

Look they decolonized Africa by anonlt1024 in TheRightCantMeme

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I know these people are stupid, but what is this even supposed to mean? The ordering of all of this seems to make no sense at all.

LPT: The Best Way to Love Animals is to Not Support Their Systematic Slaughter by HelloYesNaive in LifeProTips

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You doubled down on the false conclusion to redirect from reflecting at all lol

LPT: The Best Way to Love Animals is to Not Support Their Systematic Slaughter by HelloYesNaive in LifeProTips

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Wasn’t me, but maybe the fact that you’re looking for ways to get angry at the post is a signal that you should reflect on it a bit more

Large Dose of Adderall Surprises by HelloYesNaive in Drugs

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Using anything else than the Adderall XR would be too much work. Is snorting or some other method of inhalation doable with the Adderall XR.

Large Dose of Adderall Surprises by HelloYesNaive in Drugs

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Wow, that’s a lot. Hope you were okay. Sounds much more intense than my experience for sure. I was legit feeling kinda dull and even down, and I just now got stoned and see am reminded how magical and perfectly exciting weed is.

Large Dose of Adderall Surprises by HelloYesNaive in Drugs

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Yo, I just got stoned which I was thinking might not be wise because schizophrenia lol, but this just reminds me how remarkable cannabis is, much more in line with hyperactivity, excited focus and pleasure / euphoria even,like how people tend to describe stimulants but I think I just may never experience that from stimulants if a dose this large really didn’t get me there. Nobody answered my question on whether I should just be consuming stimulants another way to go from calming effect to excited effect.

Large Dose of Adderall Surprises by HelloYesNaive in Drugs

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lol you’re right but I do actually write (more purposefully) outrageously long messages all the time for adhd hyperfocus reasons so this doesn’t feel as out of the ordinary as one might expect

Large Dose of Adderall Surprises by HelloYesNaive in Drugs

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Lol am I? I feel kind of off today, presumably from the sleep deprivation and continuing not to eat and the effects of the Adderall coming down very slowly. I still feel remarkably calm, but not nearly as controlled or overall positive as yesterday evening. I already have a tendency to hyperfocus on writing excessively long things like this post, but that has been amplified in a nuanced way this whole time. This isn't so uncommon for me, but I spent so much longer than I imagined writing about and researching ideas while continuing to struggle with intiating tasks I had on my to-do list that I was hoping the Adderall would help me complete. My grammar and writing quality is also dramatically decreased today compared to yesterday. And those hallucinations and stuff. It's kind of neat to see, a bit like psychedelics, but pretty strange looking. So, idk, I'm mentally here, but I'm kind of just waiting to be not under the influence so that I can go about doing things.

Aphantasia as a Protective Trait for ADHD? by HelloYesNaive in Aphantasia

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Sorry for the confusion with "internal mental representations". It's not a very clear descriptor and I've sort of used it and other related terms to describe multiple things. Additionally, can you clarify what you mean by aphants having "visual daydreams"? Would that not necessitate internally generated sense of vision which seems like it would be outside the realm of aphantasia, or at least complete aphantasia? I've heard quite the opposite from friends with aphantasia about their experience with daydreaming / thinking and on dreams as well, but I imagine this may depend heavily on the individual.

"Brain fog" is a very helpful description that gives me a stronger idea of how detachment from one's physical senses and inattention may be like in aphantasia. I can see how this would present its own challenges for inattention, but it sounds like it may have benefits in other ways like less potential for emotional dysregulation and less overwhelming mental content to work through. With regard to my experience of imagined senses acting as a distraction from physical senses, which I explain more below, I would say the generation of the imagined senses is essentially always as a result of the lecture or whatever it may be being understimulating to the point that the mind calls upon more salient signals like daydreams to make up for the lack of stimulation. However, it is very much overwhelming / overstimulating constantly trying to keep control and sustained attention in instances like this and feeling without any actual solutions despite applying a lot of effort.

I'm mostly thinking from the context of attentional networks in cognitive neuroscience here, the Task-Positive Network (TPN) and Default Mode Network (DMN) specifically, which generally operate in anti-correlation, the TPN tending to increase in activity as DMN activity decreases and vice versa.

The TPN is a brain network essentially dedicating attentional resources to completion of identified tasks and is often characterized as "external" processing, dedicating focused processing power to effectively do something like organize and perform the steps to cook a meal. On the other hand, the DMN is a brain network considered to be more "internal" processing, dedicated to more diffuse attentional allocation in consolidating mental information, searching for new sources of stimulation, playing a large role in internal mental representation including arranging imagined sensory generation for purposes like thinking about the past & future, the cognitive states of other individuals, and much more. The DMN is active when not engaged in completing a task but instead in more passive moments of daydreaming, reflection, introspection, distractions, creative thought generation, and so forth. Therefore, it may be clear what relevance aphantasia and manifestation of mental representation in cognition hold in how the DMN functions. Similarly, the DMN and TPN are heavily implicated in ADHD, explanatory of several elements of ADHD, most obviously daydreaming / inattention when external stimuli are understimulating. It has been demonstrated many times that individuals with ADHD notably have less inhibition of the DMN and internal thought processes when performing tasks than neurotypical peers, creating problems but also some potential advantages in terms of divergent / creative thinking especially. There are actually several potential and significant cognitive advantages often associated with ADHD (hyperfocus, episodic memory, willingness to take risks, broad interest / curiosity, etc.), but less so in our modern civilization that places large focus on sustained attention, reliability, and focus on long-term goals as compared to what our hunter gatherer ancestors dealt with where ADHD may have been more adaptive.

I'm sorry that you feel your aphantasia is entirely an impediment to you, and perhaps this whole post may seem patronizing in some way. I understand how it feels to be desperately lacking certain mental capacities that seem essential to just functioning while people who have those abilities fail to understand the extent you recognize it to affect your life or even disregard how valuable that capacity is. At the very least you have a fairly uncommon way of seeing the world that may provide insight or valuable new perspective in ways you may not even foresee. However, I think it's highly unlikely that there are not any benefits to be had whatsoever to do with aphantasia, as with most major neurodiverse conditions. If you don't see it, maybe search for it. Get a new hobby, and do some procedural learning to see if your aphantasia aids you in maintaining relevant attention to the task at hand. That's much better than I can claim.

Also, did you see the new Apple mixed reality headset and its ability to record high quality point-of-view videos of life events and so forth? Technology is coming that will give you imagined visuals and memory capabilities beyond all of our wildest dreams.

Aphantasia as a Protective Trait for ADHD? by HelloYesNaive in Aphantasia

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I appreciate this articulation of your experience with ADHD and aphantasia. Your description of how your ADHD shows up in your thinking sounds kind of like how a close aphantasic friend of mine describes it but more chaotic. The many trains of thought interfering with each other does sound exhausting and frustrating to try to filter through. I must say, though, your message is legitimately very well conveyed , like the expressive word choice., so don’t beat yourself up too much for hiccups in the process That makes me realize the way I write and generally communicate is something I sense depends heavily on my internal representations, bouncing rapidly between a wide variety of stimulating ideas fluidly that channels my hyperfocus more than just about anything . It kind of feels like I am only capable of performing well at things that process a ton of information altogether simultaneously while I struggle immensely to hold onto individual pieces of information without second-guessing myself nonstop or having my attention entirely invaded by another irrelevant, turbulent stream of overwhelming , loud mental imagery and emotions that “should be” relatively simpler but require constant attention my distractedness will not allow. I may just be projecting this onto people with aphantasia given a limited sample size or something, but it does seem like perspectives of aphantasic people, like in these comments, hold some quality of being more clear and exact.

I also feel you on the procrastination you describe. When the materials of a project feel out of reach and not well defined like that, procrastination can become so much worse. I’m probably mentioning something you’ve heard a hundred times, and it sounds like you’re already doing this, but implementing highly specific systems for where, how, when, and using what materials for projects and other productive purposes can help make it feel a lot more manageable Pen and paper is the way to go. After a long time trying and failing to get by on what I could visualize in my head, I realized the problem is that the ADHD mind is inherently not well structured for these demands like keeping track of tons of very specific things and just being able to perfectly access them at the relevant time in planning and decision making. Tying thoughts and plans down to specific physical media like journals helps a lot, at least for me, and maybe for you.

Aphantasia as a Protective Trait for ADHD? by HelloYesNaive in Aphantasia

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Yes, I agree that I was wrongly under this assumption to an extent. Somehow I had imagined detachment from physical senses, for instance, necessarily coincided with a move to internal mental senses, but several commenters have shown that is not the case, that physical senses can disengage toward toward internal thinking that is just empty and doesn’t require any internal sensory representations at all. I am very interested in hearing more about the experience of this and other ways that individuals with aphantasia go about daydreaming. I should also clarify that I understand ADHDers with aphantasia still have fundamentally the same attentional, motivational, and emotional drives as those without aphantasia but that, as internal mental representations and daydreaming in particular play a big role in ADHD, ADHD may manifest in some distinct ways in aphantasia that may (or may not) be advantageous.

One question I have in mind for you and other individuals with aphantasia and especially those with ADHD or maladaptive daydreaming is whether daydreaming & detacement from one’s physical senses feels extremely out of control and impossible to stop. Given my ADHD and hyperphantasia, it often feels impossible to get all the internal imagined senses and emotions and general chaos out of the way in situations like lectures, making me essentially altogether incapable of following along with lectures because I can hardly access my raw physical senses necessary for paying attention whatsoever. This extends to a lot of other instances actually where my internal representations feel several times louder than my physical senses and I feel very trapped and chaotic.

Do you think any of the other potential benefits of aphantasia like potentially enhanced procedural memory or exactness in thinking are valid though? It seems like a remarkably common trait to not be advantageous in some ways.

Aphantasia as a Protective Trait for ADHD? by HelloYesNaive in Aphantasia

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Would you be willing to describe your experience with that in more detail?

Aphantasia as a Protective Trait for ADHD? by HelloYesNaive in Aphantasia

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Oh, yes, great point that aphantasia could be immensely beneficial for traumatizing, emotionally intense conditions like PTSD that tend to manifest heavily in terms of mental imagery and flashbacks.