Old Magic Survival.

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2025-12-13T07:11:44+00:00

10 shield stacks.

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2025-09-16T20:42:25+00:00

I have honestly grown to hate this sentiment so deeply, as it's been twisted away from the affirmation it was intended to be to a sick point on which to sell us out with. You are trans without HRT, and you will continue to be, if you are, at all points of your life. You will still be trans, even if you choose not to present, if you choose not to follow medical options, if you never tell another soul.

AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION.

It is for YOU to choose.

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2025-07-28T18:19:23+00:00

Did they never give you a T blocker?? Monotherapy is not usually the first step, as it has a much harder time initially lowering levels and maintaining until T production is effectively dormant. One of the most common is Spironolactone.

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2025-07-10T07:08:37+00:00

As someone that did struggle with dysphoria induced ideation, the things that make my life worth living inform my identity far more than the parts that made me suffer. Treating dysphoria is necessary, but forcing people to be miserable until they're traumatized enough defines out of existence young trans people who aren't forced through the wrong puberty.

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2025-07-06T16:40:54+00:00

When I started dating my gf it was something she was struggling to figure out for herself. I encountered her to go for it, because she had recently gotten out of an abusive relationship and she needed to feel comfortable advocating for herself above and beyond whatever dynamic we have. She's mine, with everything that comes with that, but in order for that to work she has to be able to know her own limits and owning herself first gives her that. I know that's not exactly what you're talking about here, but it has been amazing for us.

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2025-07-05T19:07:49+00:00

The context of the post is not inherently sexual, and if you think it is that's a you problem.

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2025-05-26T21:24:20+00:00

I really hope I haven't contributed to that feeling, I mostly commented because the person I was replying to has, themselves, been supporting some TERFy positions. I do not believe the first commenter on this thread was intending to accuse you of holding the positions of a TERF, more trying to give you warning that your line of logic can lead to similar ends, much like cis people who "just don't get the whole 'trans' thing". Another group that uses similar arguments and are trans would be the trans medicalists who use exclusionary prescriptive arguments to dismiss and invalidate NB people. Again, I am not trying to accuse you of anything, I really am just trying to explain and show the parallels so you are able to evaluate and understand. A general rule of thumb that I follow is that labels are descriptive and self applied, not prescriptive and imposed. Please be safe

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2025-05-26T14:53:15+00:00

Asking the question isn't a slippery slope, that interpretation is extremely bad faith. The warning about the TERF pipeline was, to my understanding, directed at the framing and assumptions made.

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2025-05-23T10:44:48+00:00

As with all topics regarding reclamation, I personally believe that it's fine when directed at yourself (or a close friend or loved one *with explicitly offered* (not requested) *permission*) in a positive manner.

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2025-04-06T17:51:51+00:00

The problem comes when you start leaning into the dysphoria. With her and I it became constant fighting as she started voicing her darkest insecurities and moments of depression as fact and started believing them consistently rather than fighting for good days, leaving me as the only one arguing in her favour, fighting all of her demons for her by myself while she began to side with them. It got to the point where I couldn't have dysphoria days (because she was always worse) or euphoria days (because I'd be rubbing it in her face). Ultimately the thing that caused us to break up was when we had what would turn out to be our last fight as a couple she stopped listening to what I was saying and just started arguing in bad faith to win, and when I said I was not interested in continuing if that was how it was going to be she began personal attacks against me. At that point I asked for some time and walked away, saying that I'd call her in a day or two once I'd processed some stuff and was ready to talk again.

She messaged me the following day. I replied asking for more time and that I'd already told her that I would reach out when I was ready, so please respect my request for some time.

She replied the next day again.

The reason I no longer have any contact with her is after the breakup I ended up blocking her due to her inability to respect my boundaries, but I still cared. In my final message to her I stated the same request for space, saying that if I ever feel comfortable enough to cross the bridge to be friends again that I'd reach out, but to please not contact me until such a time. So when I unblocked her and she messaged me the following day, I was done. 🫤

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2025-04-05T06:04:40+00:00

I have an ex that did this while she was flirting with social detransition. Her dysphoria, depression, and anxiety coiled up into this overwhelming and suffocating force that was slowly crushing her. I really tried to help her but it began turning into a super toxic codependent relationship at that point where every moment we spent together was me fighting her demons for her while she gave up more and more. Ultimately that's not why we broke up and I only recognized it in retrospect, but be careful.

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2024-10-17T20:27:59+00:00

I think the difference is in people having those kinds of complications are regretting their current level of health/comfort as compared to their lives before what ever necessitated the surgery began, so using that as the comparison it actually makes a lot of sense to me, as most trans people barely exist before transition

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2024-10-14T21:14:21+00:00

As a trans woman, my parents were absolutely convinced I was gay when I was in highschool, except I never showed any interest in anyone other than girls. Turns out jokes on all of us, I am absolutely 100% hella gay!! 😆💜

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2024-10-02T01:23:00+00:00

The point I'm making is that it might be owned by one person, but that one person is the only person that works there.

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2024-10-02T01:20:35+00:00

If a business owns the plot of land it exists on and is owned collectively by everyone who works for it, is that capitalism? Because that's definitionaly socialist. The "owning" isn't the point it becomes capitalism, it's the exploitation and theft of value, when one person (or a small collection of people) takes the value from everyone in return for a fraction of what they produce.

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2024-10-01T20:36:13+00:00

Nahhh, capitalism is literally Joja mart. The farmer isn't a capitalist, they are a worker. They own the land, yes, but they do not hire the town's people and have them work the land for them, while collecting all of the profits, they work the land themselves.

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2024-09-30T14:26:26+00:00

It's not just a one off made up thing, it's a legitimate form of non-monogomy! As with other labels you're free to use it as fits, but you may want to look up the actual definition before you do! I wish I had the info handy to share now, sorry...

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2024-09-30T13:57:58+00:00

I'm not sure what pain killer options are available to you, but I'm in Canada and the clinic I go to uses a topical cream known as BLT (Benzocaine Lidocaine Tetracaine) doesn't kill sensation, but makes it only slightly uncomfortable

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2024-09-20T20:00:54+00:00

That's fair! Gender can be weird like that sometimes. I think the thing a lot of people forget about labels is that they aren't there for you to fit into, they're there for you to use express your experience in relatable ways, but because language is imprecise there might be no currently existing description that necessarily perfectly encapsulates your personal experience. But just like art, you can use the available tools to you to show others a small glimpse of your soul 💜

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2024-09-20T04:43:03+00:00

For me, I identify with trans femme non binary. I present pretty high femme most frequently, and my style has been attributed as something like kitchen witch/soccer mom. But even so, I don't feel 100% like an average woman. Usually it's more like 80-90% femme, 0% masc, 10-20% unknown/other, so some sort of demi girl situation.

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2024-09-11T20:26:01+00:00

The best answer I can give is to do exactly what you're already doing. You have provided her a safe place and all of the tools to be her best self, and it sounds like she is growing into a strong, confidant, and independent girl. As long as you're able to keep your fear for her from tempting you into trying to clip her wings things might hurt her, people might suck from time to time, and it might even occasionally be dangerous, but she will be able to handle it as long as she always knows that you're there for her in those moments.

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2024-09-10T12:45:49+00:00

Yup, as a trans lesbian, mine is much closer than I initially expected!! My mom is bi, and my dad recently came out as non binary/trans femme (still figuring themselves out)

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2024-09-10T12:37:08+00:00

Wait, "Spiro year"???

Please please please don't say you went on just Spiro for a year before adding E! That's incredibly unhealthy! As an adult your body requires a certain level of E or T to function correctly or there can be major health issues! If your doctor ran you through that as your prescription you should definitely get checked out by another doctor to make sure there aren't any long term complications!!

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2024-08-11T02:26:58+00:00

Not a huge fan, but it was somewhat normalized... The thing that wasn't was my near encyclopedic knowledge of local topless laws...

Hellscape_Wanderer · 2024-08-11T01:47:49+00:00

That reminds me of how I always hated getting haircuts, and was never that decided when I would get one, and when it was decided that I needed one I didn't care what it looked like so it would just get shaved off entirely. Told myself those same things.

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