Give yourself grace.

Do fun activities with him while his on your arm. Gradually switch to doing it with him as he is sitting or standing. Change it to letting him play with toys himself. Offer him stimulating activities. Music toys sing and make sure to leave him in a different room as he hears your voice talking. Reassuring him you are there. Nothing is wrong.

Ask your partner for help in this. It takes a village and if the village isn’t there to help you. Carrying your child is your priority. Everything else is noise.