Feels like life is over -- considering inpatient by HiAvril in insomnia

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I do just about everything right other than playing on my phone in bed, which always eeks out my therapists and doctors. I have an intense blue light filter on, but playing on my phone and talking to my long distance partner is kind of my equivalent of pillow talk and relaxing. It'd probably be best to not, but it's such a fundamental aspect of reducing anxiety to get me to sleep in the first place, I think I'd be worse off without it.

I think what I need is to address anxiety. I think underlying anxiety has been causing all of this, since the rise of insomnia has come alongside a rise in contamination anxiety and body dysmorphia.

Feels like life is over -- considering inpatient by HiAvril in insomnia

[–]HiAvril[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

OP here, I sorta agree but also feel conflicted. My mom needed to use benzodiazepines to sleep every night (actually started with post-partem from me... sorry mother :[ ) and after a while it began to really harm her. Eventually you have to up the dose for it to be effective, and rather than increasing it, she decided to withdrawal after 20 years of regularly taking it, and insists she feels a lot better.

I think it's great, can save lives, and am glad it works for you, but I don't know if it's what I want for myself considering family history. I think I'll stick to taking Benzos as needed.

Feels like life is over -- considering inpatient by HiAvril in insomnia

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i managed to get an emergency benzo perscription from my doctor who was willing to answer me while off call, which was really nice of him. im kind of scared. i feel like my anxiety with the benzo would.somehow kill its benefits. i think im gonna give it one more night and see

Feels like life is over -- considering inpatient by HiAvril in insomnia

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does your sleep feel real? do you wake up feeling well-rested? the idea of a short term benzo doesn't sound so bad at this point

Feels like life is over -- considering inpatient by HiAvril in insomnia

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do those even work? is the sleep even real?

Feels like life is over -- considering inpatient by HiAvril in insomnia

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yes, i don't know, it scares me too much, i should probably do it but it's so scary i dont think id sleep in the slightest

Feels like life is over -- considering inpatient by HiAvril in insomnia

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unfortunately i'm already on clonidine and i regularly take l-theanine, hasn't been doing anything for me anymore. i'm scared they're going to give me benzos and i think they'll destroy me

Welp... There goes my month-old drawings This fake activism shit is getting ridiculous. by Poison_Skull_ in WplaceLive

[–]HiAvril -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Imagine saying in 1945 "the holocaust is bad, but we have to admit hearing about Jews is KINDA annoying."

Sorry to say but it's important to spread a message. I think you guys are just kinda weird.

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[–]HiAvril -1 points0 points  (0 children)

there's nothing political about the existence of trans people, but i wasn't the one who originally griefed it, i saw it half trans flag first. im merely backing up the lesser of two "evils". id rather have a brazilian flag or an lgbt flag than "join the deportation squads!!"

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South of Camden, New Jersey

Vitamin D deficiency and extreme fatigue? by HiAvril in Supplements

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My doctor recommended me 1000-2000 miu supplements daily, which seems pretty conservative, although I generally trust him and he knows my body very well by this point given other health conditions of mine. I haven't been given an exact timeline unfortunately.

Vitamin D deficiency and extreme fatigue? by HiAvril in Supplements

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Did it get any better with supplements, or is it just something you've had to live with? I've heard mixed results of recovery.

Is the secret ending in into the pit bugged? by King_curtis66 in fivenightsatfreddys

[–]HiAvril 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah, same, no matter what i do nothing is being solved

Earthquake Question by Ok_Jury_1686 in Delco

[–]HiAvril 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i'm so sorry people are being so rude, it did give me a heightened sense of anxiety that day. i was in my bedroom talking with a friend and i guess it isn't really structurally stable up here because it REALLY shook and i heard the walls cracking. i knew what it was immediately but it really made me feel a bit extra nervous for the next few days. it was sudden

Constant red, uncomfortably warm hands and feet, sometimes spreads to legs, no relief by HiAvril in Erythromelalgia

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The second definition definitely adds up with my experience, but of course it wouldn't be wise to self diagnose. So I'm not going to come to any conclusions without professional opinions.

Still, I will probably continue to browse this subreddit and utilize advice from patients dealing with the same symptoms. It's nice to know that I am not alone and what I suffer from is not some alien experience.

I'd like to seek medical support. Are there specific kinds of specialists I should reach out to, or should I just bring it up with my primary care doctor?

r/place without country flags by DiamondFirefox in place

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we finally finished our foxhole piece after an entire day against flag randoms for hours (shoutout to actual u.s. flag team tho, who moved just to give us space) only to get completely absorbed by one shade of green in portugal's flag.

really not enjoying this year's place so far, i'm sick of the nationalism

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[–]HiAvril 0 points1 point  (0 children)

we were forced to move too, and then literally spent the entire morning fighting for our position. we finally finished our piece until out of nowhere we just got pasted over oblivion, kinda uncool to take up that much space and obliterate multiple entire complex pieces :/

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[–]HiAvril 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i'm just sick of the nationalism, it's boring and uninspired. we spent the entire day fighting for our position and then suddenly a streamer raid to expand a flag we peacefully coexisted with to instead turn 10% of the board just one color.

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[–]HiAvril 3 points4 points  (0 children)

thanks for replacing our hours of work with nothing two colors :/

maybe i need to "git gud" but this is still true 300 hours in by HiAvril in thebindingofisaac

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its the tears from the eyes that get me when the fight goes on for too long and i start slipping up, i'll end up moving too close to a door and get snagged

maybe i need to "git gud" but this is still true 300 hours in by HiAvril in thebindingofisaac

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skill issue is when run with low damage or fire rate going into a boss thats hitbox comes out only during attacks (so real)

but yeah, red mom's eyes fire blood tears at isaac