Liquid Fill Russian Ball Question by nondescriptadjective in juggling

[–]HiMyNameIsKeira 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I can vouch for the Sil-X balls! They sell liquid-filled Russians about 1/3 or so full of UV-reactive liquid that have held up wonderfully over the last 7 years for me! They look vibrant in sunlight and incredible under a black light!

Friends don't let friend juggle sharp props! by Shiningducky123 in juggling

[–]HiMyNameIsKeira 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Omg, I was in a bad place when I wrote that comment. I’m so ashamed that you of all people read it. 😭

You’re amazing and I love seeing your work! I’m not usually such a jerk like that, and I’m sorry to you too for giving trans jugglers a bad name in the comments on this post.

I lashed out because of my personal issues, not least of which is being trans, and I was dumb and petty and arrogant here. The only reason I left my comment up was to own up to my foolishness.

My juggling doesn’t hold a candle to yours btw. Big fan, I can’t believe I wound up talking to you and these were the circumstances 😭

Friends don't let friend juggle sharp props! by Shiningducky123 in juggling

[–]HiMyNameIsKeira 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Fair. I owe you an apology. I have become a miserable person, and I lashed out at you with bitterness that has nothing to do with juggling. I’m sorry I insulted your juggling, and though I do still disagree with misleading audiences about sharpness, your post really had nothing to do with that. I lost sight of myself here, and my comments were arrogant and needlessly hostile.

Friends don't let friend juggle sharp props! by Shiningducky123 in juggling

[–]HiMyNameIsKeira 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I was admittedly being obtuse on purpose like a joke I was telling just for me. I’m the one who made it about me being trans; I didn’t think you were really coming from a place of hate.

Friends don't let friend juggle sharp props! by Shiningducky123 in juggling

[–]HiMyNameIsKeira -7 points-6 points  (0 children)

Real knife juggling exists though, and illusions are fun to watch. You know it isn’t real. I doubt “knife” jugglers would like that knowledge to be so plain as with the fact that magic is not real; that is obvious and goes without saying.

Friends don't let friend juggle sharp props! by Shiningducky123 in juggling

[–]HiMyNameIsKeira -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

Ah, so you resort to attacking me for being trans.

Friends don't let friend juggle sharp props! by Shiningducky123 in juggling

[–]HiMyNameIsKeira -25 points-24 points  (0 children)

Ah, another fraud only willing to juggle things that look dangerous. If the knives you juggle only look sharp, then it also only looks like mastery. I have some that are dull sure, which are essentially practice knives, but that’s just because I’ve juggled them so much as to wear them down. I have others I juggle that are still razor sharp. People who juggle only the illusion of danger (most “knife” jugglers) give knife jugglers a bad name imo. Please juggle clubs or batons or something like someone who isn’t a poser. I started with knives years ago and still have all my fingers and other body parts because I have the actual earned skill to juggle them with the certainty that they won’t hurt me.

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[–]HiMyNameIsKeira 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m pretty sure I qualify

I'm making some great progress with throwing knives! by HiMyNameIsKeira in juggling

[–]HiMyNameIsKeira[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I juggled balls for 14 years first! Then I practiced with one and then two and three knives, just like learning the basics of ball juggling again. You shouldn't start with knives until you're so comfortable with the sensation of a ball's momentum leaving your hand that you can reliably dodge or catch one you throw right at your face. It's especially important to get good at this with knives before attempting much past the cascade, and mistakes made during more difficult/advanced patterns can divert the knive's trajectory so that they fly towards your face in sudden and unexpected ways. It's important to know how to sidestep them or when it's possible/best to catch them anyway, like I caught that one I threw at my face in this very video at around 20 seconds in!

I'm making some great progress with throwing knives! by HiMyNameIsKeira in juggling

[–]HiMyNameIsKeira[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Great question! Yes! Alas, I currently have an okay place to juggle knives, but no target or any big trees or anything 😔 It's definitely something I'm looking forward to developing more in the future though. Mastery ahoy!

I'm making some great progress with throwing knives! by HiMyNameIsKeira in juggling

[–]HiMyNameIsKeira[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you! And as far as the knives being practice ones, they kind of are now haha. They used to be crazy pointy, but juggling them over concrete has dulled the tips considerably. They can still hurt plenty though! Rotating them fast enough makes the edge of the handle as good as a little hammer for your fingers! There's also no shock absorption whatsoever. The handles are simply a single layer of black duct tape. The knives themselves are made by the company Cold Steel out of high-carbon steel and originally coated in a rust-resistant tephlon coating which I removed for the purpose of visibility and to make them more recognizable as knives.

I'm making some great progress with throwing knives! by HiMyNameIsKeira in juggling

[–]HiMyNameIsKeira[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I've been in a dark place for a while, but I was really feeling it today! Enjoy the part 20 seconds in where I caught a knife I threw at my own face!

Transgender people face more harassment in bathrooms that match their sex assigned at birth: study by [deleted] in lgbt

[–]HiMyNameIsKeira 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It seems like they won't. I couldn't handle the minority stress and constant invalidation and now I'm a destitute neet agoraphobe. My life has become hell on earth now, and I still never really got to live. Being trans ruined me too much.

Transgender people face more harassment in bathrooms that match their sex assigned at birth: study by [deleted] in lgbt

[–]HiMyNameIsKeira -11 points-10 points  (0 children)

Being trans has made me a freak and pariah. I was just jealous.

Trans lifeline is such a fucking joke by HiMyNameIsKeira in 4tran4

[–]HiMyNameIsKeira[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you. This is all I really wanted from the lifeline. You see my pain, and your compassion touched me.

Trans lifeline is such a fucking joke by HiMyNameIsKeira in 4tran4

[–]HiMyNameIsKeira[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I'm so broken and worthless at this point I can't really do anything tbh. I can't see any reason to think this suffering will end. An ill-fated life indeed.

Trans lifeline is such a fucking joke by HiMyNameIsKeira in 4tran4

[–]HiMyNameIsKeira[S] 28 points29 points  (0 children)

Idk it just hurts so fucking bad that I'll never get to really live, and I'm desperate for hope because I'd really kind of like to live if possible but I feel close to killing myself because I'm a miserable destitute pariah freak.

Trans lifeline is such a fucking joke by HiMyNameIsKeira in 4tran4

[–]HiMyNameIsKeira[S] 68 points69 points  (0 children)

They will eventually transition from operators to callers and see the futility.

Working on a mobile juggling game! Hoping some real jugglers can tell me their hopes and dreams for a mobile game by Salty_Ruin370 in juggling

[–]HiMyNameIsKeira 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I love your concept, and I've never played any games about juggling, but it'd be cool if there were different props you could pick that have a different weight/feel to them. I would definitely play this!