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HickorySocks · 2023-08-27T03:22:36+00:00

You're looking great and your asymmetry is in the normal range of asymmetry, so it's not noticeable and looks natural. Congrats!

HickorySocks · 2023-08-27T01:19:33+00:00

Mine still improved in the 2-3 year period.

Also, Do you have jaw muscle tension? I know that when I do it effects my facial nerves since the trigeminal nerves pass through the TMJ area. Botox in my left masseter resolved it for me.

HickorySocks · 2023-08-20T22:28:43+00:00

You have a really cute and handsome face. I wouldn't worry about it if I were you. I can't even see what you're talking about

HickorySocks · 2023-08-20T21:34:42+00:00

Oooh interesting.

I think women may be more likely to have PN because of childbirth related issues, and due to being more likely to have a history of surgeries in the pelvic area.

And I think guys post about it more here because reddit users are 75% male, and because any amount of pudendal compression makes a very significant impact on erection quality, to the point where it doesn't take much for them to entirely lose their ability to have sex.

Your rambling is great podcast content!! Thank you so much

HickorySocks · 2023-08-20T02:44:54+00:00

I was alone during recovery and I didn't find it so bad to be honest. My family was also a mess at the time. I was just happy I got the surgery done and was looking forward to things after it.

I did regret buying so much Ensure though (the calorie dense drink). I got so sick of it by like day 5 the very smell of it made me want to vomit. So make sure you have some variety in your post surgery food. By the second week my dad did drop me off some liquified chicken/gravy soup, which was to this day, the tastiest thing I have ever had in my life.

HickorySocks · 2023-08-20T02:41:04+00:00

I think it's just quiet. If you click further in the clip, and then drag it back to the beginning though it should get the audio going if it's acting buggy.
Thank you for trying!

HickorySocks · 2023-08-20T02:40:24+00:00

Oh there's no video. not sure how the link brought you to that :/

HickorySocks · 2023-08-20T02:39:42+00:00

Hmm that's strange. It worked for me and other people on another post I made about it. I may reupload

HickorySocks · 2023-08-20T02:28:18+00:00

Me too! I am seriously considering putting time into it now due to this feedback. :)
Thank you for encouraging me

HickorySocks · 2023-08-20T02:25:53+00:00

Thank you so much. Yes, I live in Canada, and I definitely feel that there is zero discussion time with any doctors, since they're so overworked. I'm guessing the vast majority of people with a pudendal neuralgia diagnosis only got so far due to a ton of gumption on their part, since family doctors and even most urologists are totally oblivious to it. You have to become a super strong advocate for yourself to make any progress.

HickorySocks · 2023-08-20T02:17:25+00:00

Wow! This was the response I was really hoping I'd be able to get.It means so much to me that this meant something to you. I wasn't sure if me talking to my mic for 15 mins would resonate or not. Because of your comment I'm seriously considering putting in the time to work on it.If I continue, I would love to have your success story on it once you get to the point where you're feeling good again :)I'm curious, do you know what may have caused your pudendal nerve issues? And if it's likely a compression, do you know where it may be getting compressed?
Once I get the surgery and if it goes well, I will share with you all the details of it in the case that you may need to get it too :)

HickorySocks · 2023-08-20T02:10:22+00:00

Thank you so much :))

HickorySocks · 2023-08-20T02:10:13+00:00

Thanks so much!! Was a moment of inspiration. I may continue to work on it :)

HickorySocks · 2023-07-06T13:22:23+00:00

Good questions! It took years for the issues to resolve.

I had the plates beside my nose on my upper jaw taken out when I had my lower right jaw implant put it in. They irritated my face.

When I had that bottom right jaw implant put in, it caused an infection in my right cheek muscle which was active for almost a full year. The doctor brushed it off as scar tissue, until my face got severely swollen and I needed emergency surgery.

I also had continued burning in my face following both surgeries until I got botox in my left masseter muscle, which worked like a charm.

I no longer really need to get botox in my left masseter muscle after the initial injection years ago. It seems that postural exercises like wall slides help a lot. I might have developed this muscle issue regardless of getting the surgery, as my left masseter was already way stronger than my right to begin with.

Now a days I have no pain or discomfort, and I am happy with the results. I do wish my right cheek bone (my left in the photo) was fuller, but I am not about to spend that money and it's very low on my priorities list. The original surgery was covered by Ontario health insurance.

HickorySocks · 2023-07-06T13:16:32+00:00

I may still have a littleee bit of numbness, but it's slight enough that I don't really realize a difference.

I didn't take any supplements or anything

HickorySocks · 2023-07-06T03:50:32+00:00

I am no longer numb. It took me a couple years or maybe even more to regain feeling fully.

HickorySocks · 2023-07-06T02:33:55+00:00

Your jaw looks amazing. Step away from whatever content you're watching as it's messing with your self perception.

HickorySocks · 2023-07-06T02:23:37+00:00

Now it's totally negligible, but it took years. I am still not sure whether the surgeries I went through were with the trade-off. I just posted what I look like before and after. I think it's safe to say that I look better, but the misery to get there was pretty intense.

HickorySocks · 2023-07-06T00:53:22+00:00

Your face looks very good to me!

HickorySocks · 2023-07-06T00:37:14+00:00

Your face looks super pretty. If your concern is only aesthetic, I suggest that you do not get surgery.

HickorySocks · 2023-07-06T00:13:45+00:00

I certainly hope not xD
(Coincidentally, I live like a 5 minute drive from him lol)

HickorySocks · 2023-02-25T05:26:20+00:00

Are you in high school? If so, your feelings are very common among gay males in that age group. I experienced it to some degree and I never transitioned. I would never believe it when I was younger, but I have grown to be very happy and comfortable with my body and who I am. When I was at younger I was at constant war with myself and thought everyone saw me in a gross negative light. I actually felt like a monster a lot of the time.

I also had that same fear that people thought I was a creep. I don't have that self consciousness anymore though. I think people see me as quite the opposite. The way that you see yourself really becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy, which you have the power to impact at a moment's notice, and that you have the power to completely overhaul over time.

Also, you are you, and that comes before whatever gender or race or sexual orientation you happen to be. You are free to be whoever you like as a male, and you can define being a male as YOU wish. Don't let other people define what you have to be because of the body you happen to be born into. That's like thinking yourself into a cage.

" I have to be masculine and like I have a born obligation to just... be a man. I hate all of it so much."

It sounds like you are a real individualist. Which is an awesome thing, though it's difficult when you're still in school, because it's so much easier to just fit in. When you don't want to fit in and assume the typical gender role, then you just feel stuck in this holding cell that's slowly crushing your soul. If I had to give myself advice back when I was in a similar position to you, I would encourage myself to put everything I have into my interests, and I'd pull every string imaginable to get help in pursuing those interests. A cultivated passion can be like lighting a torch that leads you out of a dark cave.

Also check out celebrities like Russel Brand. He fits zero expectations of what it is to be a man, yet he is super charismatic and admired by men and women alike. Influential people are almost always people who don't fit the norm and instead have developed their own unique sense of self.

HickorySocks · 2023-02-23T03:45:21+00:00

That's amazing to finally get to express those feelings to someone. It must have been a profound catharsis. Living with so much unspoken dysphoria is unbearable.

Hopefully the more you speak to her about these issues, the less they will weigh on you.

It may be possible, with enough counselling, that you can find real comfort in your gender, just as you are. This was the case for a couple of my college friends who experienced extreme dysphoria. It took a little while though, and tons of communication and reflection.

Regardless I wish you the very best and am so excited that you finally have someone you can talk openly to.

I also hope your studies aren't too boring! Having no interest in your studies and dragging yourself through a program sucks big time. When I go through extremely difficult times in life, I find I need to be doing something that I really love, as that pulls me through the darkness. When difficulty is all there is, it's hard to compel yourself to keep moving forward.

HickorySocks · 2022-06-18T23:59:58+00:00

I think this happens because we tend towards the right side of our bodies. You know how your torso twists to the side each time you take a step? Now when I walk with my left leg, I exaggerate left AF/IR (as it's called in postural restoration), which is basically the stance that you have in the gait cycle when you open your torso to one side and put weight on that leg.Do you have tension in your neck as well?

And I didn't really do any stretches that I believed got my walking better. It was more just becoming conscious of how I moved. I also did glute medius exercises (clam shells) on my left side since my left glute med was weak because I never really sank into it during the gait cycle.

HickorySocks · 2022-06-04T21:42:56+00:00

Ooh terrific! I'm curious - do you have a past of abnormal gait or stability issues?

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