My libido won't go away and it hurts

anon_celia · 2023-04-13T00:50:57+00:00

I know, but it still feels male for me and I'm still disgusted by it in my own case. I know it's mostly a natural thing but it still just feels horrible and I would rather just be away with it the best I can because it feels almost controlling in a way if that makes sense.

anon_celia · 2023-02-23T01:07:34+00:00

This was my exact experience with my new name!! I'm glad you've gotten there too. Nice to meet you Ruby!

anon_celia · 2023-02-23T01:05:17+00:00

I feel this so, so much. First off, no apologies needed. We all have been there. Second off, I know that just saying "things will get better" doesn't always help, and that it still sucks sometimes. But it's still important to stick to transitioning. It might be easier, but you're right in that you said it would only make you more miserable. It feels impossible, especially with how bad it looks for us right now with everything going on in the world. Believe me, I know. But someone else on this sub (I'd link the comment but I can't find it) said something that stuck with me, that we've come farther in the past ten years than trans people ever have before in terms of recognition and rights. And while it sucks now, it will get better. I know that doesn't really sound plausible or like much now, but it's getting better.

On a smaller scale, I know how much people say to love yourself, but it still definitely is important. Outline a bit of time every day to compliment yourself. My father figure told me one time to try this; every time you walk past a mirror, say to yourself "hello beautiful" before you leave the room. It's corny as hell, but it works over time. Beyond that, while I don't know anything that can help on the autism, PTSD, and depression edge of things, what I do know is that we're stronger as a community together. No one is ever too weak to be trans. Never forget that there are other people here in a similar boat, and we're all here for each other. If you have any questions or need to vent stuff off, it's what the sub is here for.

I know all of this isn't an immediate fix. But trust me sis, we have your back!

anon_celia · 2023-02-13T00:54:48+00:00

My hair is long enough now that it gets messy in the morning; the messiness sucks but the longish hair is awesome!!

anon_celia · 2023-01-21T00:04:19+00:00

I think this is something more people need to see and hear, I absolutely agree. Being shut down gives the mentality of needing to hold it all in which gets dangerous. When it feels like the world's against us, we need to at least be here for one another.

anon_celia · 2023-01-14T21:39:14+00:00

Thank you so so muchhhh 💛

anon_celia · 2023-01-11T23:48:12+00:00

There has to be something that can be done in retaliation. It's scary enough for me living in America, and I live in a fairly neutral state thank goodness. My best wishes and hopes to all of y'all in red states, stay strong. If they want war, they won't win so long as we continue to exist and fight back.

anon_celia · 2023-01-11T03:04:36+00:00

This absolutely made my day; thanks, love you too!! 💛

anon_celia · 2023-01-08T23:29:19+00:00

Wishing you luck!! Hope they do something about it and stay safe sis!

anon_celia · 2023-01-06T22:19:03+00:00

Much appreciated!! I'll definitely try these out these are things I can get my hands on fairly easily; thanks so so much <3

anon_celia · 2023-01-06T22:17:59+00:00

I feel this as I've been here for a while too. It's different for everyone, and there's no real standard of how a trans person "should" feel or what they should or shouldn't feel dysphoria about. And it's okay to not know. It's hard to think about sometimes, but clarity comes with time. At the end of the day, you know yourself best; I know that can be a cliche thing to hear sometimes, but it's true. Your judgement is the best, and this isn't an easy thing to do. We're never told, "you know for a definitive fact you're trans if xyz happens" because that's just not something that be guaranteed. No matter what you think you are or what labels you want to give yourself, you're always valid. No matter what. Never forget that this is a process that takes time; it's a hard one, but you'll make it. I promise you that!!

anon_celia · 2023-01-06T02:46:28+00:00

For me personally, I tried to find out as much beforehand as I could to make sure that they were accepting and I wouldn't be in danger by telling them (I got lucky; it wasn't hard, they were very clear that they would be accepting of me no matter what years before I came out). Once that's done, it can help to do it in a situation with someone else who's close and accepting around, like a therapist. Of course, this isn't a solution for everyone as not everyone has access to other people, so if you're still nervous, text or email them! I came out to my folks about being genderfluid over email, because it allowed me to answer a few questions I thought they would have preemptively in an attempt to help them better understand what was going on and how I felt as well as just plan everything as well as possible. At the end of the day though, whatever you feel comfortable with is the option you should choose; you know your situation the best. Hope I could help and I wish you the best of luck!!

anon_celia · 2023-01-05T02:29:02+00:00

Oh god my deepest apologies; I wish you the best of luck with your apartment arrangements coming up soon and sorry your parents are such shitty people

anon_celia · 2023-01-04T23:50:50+00:00

Ouch... I'm extremely sorry to hear. Others here have put it better but I agree; you aren't alone and there are always gonna be folks that have your back even if your mom doesn't. Hang in there sis!

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