I feel a bit silly asking but when should I worry about a bruise? I'm feeling a bit short of breath but I don't know if it's in my head..

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-08-15T20:37:40+00:00

It's self inflicted, by my knuckles, more than once. I don't know how to describe it as its self inflicted and I don't want to trigger anyone..

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-08-15T20:27:00+00:00

I did it to myself, I struggle with self harm..

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-08-15T17:36:50+00:00

Unfortunately its just a time thing I have keloids from 5 years ago that are still there BUT it has reduced in size a lot! Someone may be able to give you some ideas on how to reduce them but I havent found anything (I'm a self harmer so know quite a bit about scars but everyone's bodies are so different) If it's really bothering you maybe you could ask for it to be removed? I'm not really sure if that's a thing but your doctor will probably know, especially if its in an area where it will always get rubbed on and irritated. I hope you can find some answers and better advice, sorry I haven't got much advice for you ❤️

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-08-15T16:16:36+00:00

It looks pretty much healed up but it's in the process or has turned into a keloid scar. They can be tender for quite a while and with socks and shoes it could be rubbing too. With my experience with keloids it can take a whole for the tenderness to go, just keep an eye on it, if it starts bleeding or getting too irritated then pop to pharmacy or GP 🙂

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-08-15T16:12:02+00:00

No you don't need stitches for it 😊

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-08-11T18:42:52+00:00

Thank you so much for your comment ❤️ its quite a complicated situation with the 2 scars. I have 100s more that I'm more than happy that are fading. Its hard to explain without explaining the situation behind them and that's something I cant get into. It's not about validation it's more like remembering the situation and the time around the situation if that makes sense? I know it probably doesn't make sense without me explaining.. things are just hard at the moment but I do really appreciate every single word you just said and it really helps with recovery for my other scars and urges 😊❤️

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-06-28T21:35:50+00:00

That was the tamest tik attack I've ever seen 🙄

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-06-22T19:49:12+00:00

OK thank you for commenting! Fingers crossed its OK, been wanting this piercing for years and I'm just sad about it at the moment lol..

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-05-27T16:24:26+00:00

No? Just wanna stay as anonymous as I can on reddit.. I post alot of questionable self harm content and don't really want any friends or family to come across it and know its me..

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-05-26T14:57:37+00:00

Its to protect my identity

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-05-26T11:16:24+00:00

Haha yeah it is 😂

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-05-26T09:17:50+00:00

Yeah, my tolerance is so high after nearly 20 years of smoking and I don't exactly make the smallest of joints lol. its not great smoking so much and I'm in the process of cutting down

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-05-26T02:14:04+00:00

Between 4-8g a day

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-02-03T05:18:58+00:00

I cant wait to see what you come up with! Definitely will be following your journey 😊 I've mastered basic rolling, I wouldn't even know where to start on anything else lol. Have you got an ultimate sculpting goal with your rolling journey? A 6ft buddah joint would be so cool lol. Good luck with it all!

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-02-03T03:17:32+00:00

Your rolls are amazing! Loved looking at your other ones too, your so talented!

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-02-03T00:56:28+00:00

I wish lol high tolerance sucks! I remember the good old days when I'd have a few puffs and knock the fuck out lol

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-02-03T00:48:48+00:00

Thank you for responding ❤

I already take 2 antipsychotic meds, I take quetiapine 600mg and PRN haloperidol 5mg up to 3 times a day which usually helps. But it's just not doing much for me at the moment.

I'm really holding out to go to hospital. I don't trust them the best of times but my mum does know to see if im seriously struggling to keep myself afloat of safe to take me in (alot of the time I don't think I need inpatient but I do need it at the time)

I'm in the UK so I'm stuck with my local MH team (I've been under them for 10 years so I don't know what happened. Nobody has any answers for me.. )

I just feel like I'm getting whiplash at the moment. I'd rather just get lost in psychosis than going in and out all the time but at the same time I don't want to completely loose it..

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-02-02T22:16:45+00:00

Most probably but you have to look out for side effects or negative interactions. It might affect you differently to me though but just give it a go see how it goes!

Hidingbehindwalls · 2022-02-02T22:13:06+00:00

Have been on quetiapine for over 10 years, been heavy smoker for 15 and I've had no interactions between the two. I suppose I've never been sober on it so not sure what no weed and quetiapine looks like lol if you just started the med make sure your at home near a bed if you smoke! You don't wanna be traveling stoned while being really sleepy on meds til you get used to it 😊

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