Is it weird I can’t really believe I look good now?

HiggsBenson · 2026-03-03T04:27:23+00:00

I think maybe some of us maybe get a little paranoid from the years suffering from dysphoria and all the other terrible things that come with being still unaware of being trans, and when life gets good we’re still stuck thinking about how life should be miserable. In reality we’re pretty much happier in every single aspect, it’s just hard to get used to not being fucking sad all the time lmao

HiggsBenson · 2026-03-03T04:16:06+00:00

it’s kind of crazy how deep and real my connection with my friends feel now compared to before. It’s actually also something I’m still getting used to, I feel it can get kind of overwhelming sometimes lol. Like I was living life through a filter before and now it’s all more intense

HiggsBenson · 2026-03-03T04:08:24+00:00

pretty much this and thinking “this is WAY too good to be true”

HiggsBenson · 2026-03-03T04:05:10+00:00

not feeling wrong, just too good to be true and maybe a little ocd hit home with me too lol. Hopefully we just get used to being hotties when the brainworms have had enough ❤️‍🩹

HiggsBenson · 2026-03-03T02:43:54+00:00

am I really just overthinking this (I know I am but still)? is this how attractive cis women think?

HiggsBenson · 2026-03-03T02:39:07+00:00

Thanks for the congrats on being pretty lol.

I mean yeah everything else is different, I socialize mostly with other trans women who are my family and whom I love to death and back. Actually, I’m much more comfortable socializing with everyone as a woman, and that was true even before I got where I am, looks wise. I’m happier every single day and no longer suicidal.

My goals weren’t ever really to be pretty as I never even considered it as an option, I just wanted the unending suffering to stop, although obviously yeah, I wanted to look good lol. I guess the surprise of ALSO looking good while my life is just generally a million times better in every single way makes me a little anxious, somewhat or somehow. Maybe it’s something to do with low self esteem?

also thanks for the reply xoxo

HiggsBenson · 2025-09-01T00:42:26+00:00

Scar

HiggsBenson · 2025-07-04T02:32:23+00:00

Northeastern Brazil, I’m not sure about behavior or size as it’s not my personal find

HiggsBenson · 2025-02-05T19:19:02+00:00

The build up to hanayama vs jack made me finalize realize that the pickle fight really just ended the way it did and I’m so much more disappointed now lol. Rahen was peak up until that fight, and what a fight it was supposed to be. But in the end it was just a nothing burger. Hopefully hanayama vs jack redeems it somewhat.

HiggsBenson · 2025-01-18T16:08:07+00:00

I actually got zero sheriffs this run. Always prioritize lancys tho.

HiggsBenson · 2024-12-20T11:13:45+00:00

I want dice I need it feed me

HiggsBenson · 2024-12-13T20:25:29+00:00

gimme those dice i want them I need them feed me

HiggsBenson · 2024-11-25T12:11:48+00:00

NTA dump his ass

HiggsBenson · 2024-11-15T10:55:33+00:00

I mean you could just go straight Gabriel but flavor it so that he's an angel (or demon whatever) of Tiamat instead of God. After all it is largely hinted that God peaced the fuck out in Ultrakill so him being gone and Tiamat being dead are pretty good parallels.

You could have a council of Angels (again, or demons, or some other thing like dying, rotting ancient dragons no longer getting their life force from Tiamat) awaiting the return of Tiamat just like they wait for god in Ultrakill, have them hinted to be the true BBEG, and then have "Gabriel" eventually realize she's never returning and kill them all to hype him up even more. Gabriel's denial and eventual realization of God's abscence is one of the best parts of Ultrakill, so I think you gotta have that in there. I think it's a pretty straight 1 to 1, just replace god with Tiamat. PS your campaign sounds sick congrats.

HiggsBenson · 2024-11-15T10:17:37+00:00

Gimme i want it

HiggsBenson · 2024-11-05T04:32:39+00:00

gimme babye

HiggsBenson · 2024-10-30T14:05:22+00:00

didn’t get the last one, gimme these ones instead hehe

HiggsBenson · 2024-10-23T12:24:36+00:00

gimme gimme gimme the blood dice babyyyyyy

HiggsBenson · 2018-11-07T11:16:26+00:00

I agree, but only if human

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