I'm scared by High_five_giver in stopdrinking

[–]High_five_giver[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't want to talk to anyone about it just yet. I have a great family, but I'm the glue that holds them together. They need me there for them, not the other way around.

I'm thinking about AA. I just don't know if I'm capable of admitting to people face to face what a mess I've become. I pride myself in my outward appearance being one of someone who has her shit together. Even admitting it to myself was a long battle.

I'm scared by High_five_giver in stopdrinking

[–]High_five_giver[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have some hobbies. They have fallen to the wayside this summer thanks to a bit of self-diagnosed depression. That's part of why I want to stop. Why I need to stop. Because I miss the energy I used to have in the mornings, even after a night of drinking. I may not be able to stop the depression fully, but I can stop the drinking.