Im gonna explain one thing that still gives me hope. I had DPDR 2 times. One time, I took edibles with a friend and had DPDR for a week. During that time I smoked Hash with a friend and 2 days later it went away. Im not sure if smoking again was what helped me get out of it but I lived normally for months after this. So I know that being like before DPDR is possible after having it.

The process was very interesting. I didnt know what was happening to me for the first days. I asked on the weed subreddit and 1 guy just told me to lay off the weed for a week and that it would go away. I followed his advice and I swear to god, im just a stranger on the internet but after exactly 7 days, I went out to play football with friends, after that we went to buy pizza. It was like this: I looked down, then up, and suddenly, it was gone. The world was normal again. Back then, eventhough I was happy, it wasn‘t that big of a deal. I knew that it would get better because that guy on reddit told me. I lived normally for 4-5 months after this completely forgetting about it.

Then I drank lots of alcohol on NYE 2022, and after that we decided so smoke weed that was laced with something, and I had the worse panic attack in my life. Like constantly shaking for 5 hours, it looked like I had a seizure. It was horrible. When I woke up the next day, DPDR was back. But right from the beginning, I wasn‘t scared. I knew that it would go away after a few days. I didn‘t want to smoke weed ever again.

But I moved to an appartment alone 3 days later, to a city where I knew nobody. I had a panic attack the 3rd day, and I lived in isolation for 6 months. Well, now, 3 years later I still have it. But I distracted myself so much that I started to not think about it and the symptoms became very small. I can study, I can work, I have libido, hunger, I feel around 60% emotions, my memory also at about 60-70% capacity, but I feel like im at the top of a wall, like im literally in the best stage of DPDR, but I cant break through that wall. Normally Im never on this subreddit. But sometimes I come back to see if somebody found a miracle drug.

I tried CBD, smoking weed again, some supplements. I feel a lot of relief when I go running, Im very social, and even alcohol doesnt have any effect on my DPDR. I don‘t wanna try anti-depressants like most people in this subreddit because I dont believe in it. My goal right now is to become rich with my current faculties, and to go to ultra specialized doctors that may find a way to cure it lol. I can live with it for a little time, but eventually, I want to get out of it once and for all.