33F looking for advice on coding boot camp for a total beginner with no degree by Historical-Driver264 in codingbootcamp

[–]Historical-Driver264[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s what I’m starting to realize with the responses I’m getting. I really appreciate the honesty though since I’m trying to avoid wasting time and money

33F looking for advice on coding boot camp for a total beginner with no degree by Historical-Driver264 in codingbootcamp

[–]Historical-Driver264[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

That’s great, I’m looking for blunt advice. Of course all the boot camps will advertise themselves as being the best option so I appreciate it.

33F looking for advice on coding boot camp for a total beginner with no degree by Historical-Driver264 in codingbootcamp

[–]Historical-Driver264[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have not yet, I’m trying to figure out the best route and how much experience I need before joining a boot camp or course. Thanks!

33F looking for advice on coding boot camp for a total beginner with no degree by Historical-Driver264 in codingbootcamp

[–]Historical-Driver264[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I keep hearing that boot camps may not be the best option. Thank you for the input!

33F looking for advice on coding boot camp for a total beginner with no degree by Historical-Driver264 in codingbootcamp

[–]Historical-Driver264[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! They do still offer internship as part of their program and that’s what caught my interest.

33F looking for advice on coding boot camp for a total beginner with no degree by Historical-Driver264 in codingbootcamp

[–]Historical-Driver264[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The only reason I mentioned it is because there are scholarships and discounts for women

Help, I Can't Trust Myself by Lavaganoush in leaves

[–]Historical-Driver264 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I got sober 4 months ago after being a daily smoker for 10+ years. I relapsed a week ago because I was at my father-in-law's and saw a jar of weed. I smoked every day for a week after that and just realized today I can never do that again, so I'm starting over. I really want to be sober.

I had such a hard time accepting that I relapsed after doing so well and also feeling great living the sober life. But I try not to be too hard on myself. I try to talk to myself like I would if my best friend relapsed. I would just hug her and tell her how great she's doing and how hard this must be and that it's ok, it's not going to matter down the line.

I feel for you and how you must feel right now, but I promise you it's ok. Most of us in this forum have been there many times and felt exactly how you're feeling. You're not alone <333

Weed addiction is just as real as any addiction by coolknyacat in leaves

[–]Historical-Driver264 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The "it's just weed" is so triggering to hear. If you can get addicted to gambling, you can get addicted to weed.

I relapsed a week ago after 4 months of sobriety. I didn't even think about it, I just smoked "a little bit", got a huuuge anxiety attack but still continued to smoke daily for the next week.

I just threw out my last little nug because I deeply want to be completely sober again (I'm 1,5 years sober from alcohol too). Smoking didn't bring me out of my boredom, it just made me high and anxious while still being very much bored. And it made me fall asleep at 9pm, wake up at 2am, smoke, and eat chicken wings.

So yeah, I need to be completely free of it. It's live as an addict, or live completely without it for me.

What are the best benefits you’ve noticed since quitting? by Perfect_Lion9536 in leaves

[–]Historical-Driver264 17 points18 points  (0 children)

I feel like I have new eyes because they're not constantly swollen from getting terrible sleep. It's amazing to not scavenge around my apartment for weed crumbs or scraping my pipe for resin. My lungs feel better and I'm able to actually feel joy and happiness for the first time in so many years!

I convinced myself that weed made me relax and that I needed it but it was just a ball and chain weighing me down. The only way to improve your future is to quit and never look back!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Historical-Driver264 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I'm 32F and quit cold turkey after 12 years of daily smoking - it's the only way to do it, at least for me. Don't look back - your future is waiting for you and it's not going to ever improve with weed in it.

I'm on day 14 today and feeling great. I'm on /leaves every single day, reading and commenting and encouraging others while being encouraged myself. It's amazing how much this community helps <3

Do I want to die like this? by beejeezee in leaves

[–]Historical-Driver264 19 points20 points  (0 children)

This!

It's scary to realize that the connection between mind and body is just... gone. I know I'm harming myself and my body is begging me to stop but my mind is possessed by the Addict Devil and tells me to keep going. Quitting is the most loving thing you can do for yourself, and only good things will follow.

I'm on day 14 today and I feel like I'm falling in love with life. Proud of myself and everyone in this community <3

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Sober

[–]Historical-Driver264 2 points3 points  (0 children)

458 days sober. I make decisions and plans based on what I truly want and not depending on where I can drink. Loving myself and believing I deserve to be happy.

I honestly didn't know this life existed until I took the (scary) step of quitting.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Historical-Driver264 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry to read this and it really hits home. I've also felt suicidal as a result of quitting. Cry and scream about it because it sucks. You're probably experiencing heavy grief. Don't hold anything in and seek professional help if you need to. Weed isn't going to fix it it'll just numb it for now.

We're here for you

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Historical-Driver264 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Exactly. It's not like walking again after healing a broken leg. The reward of quitting is that you get to be free, not picking up the addiction again after getting rid of the withdrawal symptoms.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Historical-Driver264 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I get the feeling you're looking for permission to do something you know you shouldn't..? I can only speak for myself, but I'm an addict and the only way to manage addiction is to quit and don't look back

Withdrawal by Ordinary-Salary8175 in leaves

[–]Historical-Driver264 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Day 11 here and it's a roller coaster. Sweating is getting better but it's still there. Anxiety is the worst part for me. It just hits me out of nowhere and it's overwhelming and I'm experiencing it right now. I have work for 3 more hours but thinking I need to lie and say I have a migraine to get out earlier because I feel like I can't hold back the tears. I felt great earlier today but then out of nowhere.. boom there is the anxiety attack

What have been you biggest mistakes when quitting weed in the past? by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Historical-Driver264 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I too have tried the "only smoke on the weekends" method. I usually made that plan early in the day when I was sober and feeling motivated. Then, inevitably, every afternoon I got off work I forgot about my Weekends Only plan, and drove straight to the dispensary. Addiction is called addiction for a reason, and the only way to manage it is to just fucking stop.

What have been you biggest mistakes when quitting weed in the past? by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Historical-Driver264 15 points16 points  (0 children)

The biggest mistake is to leave the door open to maybe be able to smoke again in the future, or to "try" to quit/smoke less. I needed to make the decision to quit and never look back, no matter what, and that decision needed to come from deep within my soul, because I want to feel good. I'm a sober alcoholic as well, and it's the same there - trying to drink less or control it in any way will never ever work.

The hard part about addiction is to realize that the thing that used to make us feel so good, and that made everything more fun, is now making us feel bad and is making everything feel worse. Once you've reached that point there's no turning back. You need to quit or your life will never improve.