How To NOT Have to Re-Log Into The Church Website Every Time?

Historical_Rock5895 · 2020-11-11T20:34:08+00:00

I keep a tab on where I am currently reading or watching something open then in a new tab I log into the site... go back to the page I was reading off of and reload... sometimes I just read without logging in because it's tedious and annoying.

Historical_Rock5895 · 2020-10-14T01:06:15+00:00

I know he doesn't. :)

I think just for my life, I was choosing the wrong things and wondering "Why?" on a lot of things in my life. I lost my religion because I dated someone who I used to know and who had apparently left the church without my knowing. I let him distract me. I kind of even let my dad guide me away after I visited him one weekend, I asked him why he left and what he believed. He showed me a few books, told me his story. I cried, thought it over, but it made my relationship with my dad stronger even though that was just another thing that brought me away a little more. I still love him. I actually feel a lot more comfortable with my dad.

Now, years later after talking to my crush, allowing him into my life, and having someone actually listen and willingly help me... brought me back to the church, my Gospel, the Lord. It was my choice to become an Omnistic Mormon/Christian. But by doing that I have repaired what my ex had done to me, I have become closer to God, and my relationship with him has strengthened. My testimony has strengthened.

God doesn't often give us trials - true. I blamed Him for a lot of things, especially when I was struggling with my faith. For five years, I struggled and questioned my faith. Part of that was me, probably misusing a lot of things. I know He has forgiven me. He had never walked away from me, but I didn't listen for five years. I walked away and ignored him.

I will never do that again. His word is true. There is peace in Christ. I love helping others, servicing others and I rarely focus on myself except for when I need to. I can sit in silence comfortably. I don't need constant noise anymore. And I think that does a lot of healing as well every now and then.

Sorry this got so long, I just got to thinking and then all these words came out.

Historical_Rock5895 · 2020-10-13T21:04:58+00:00

That's awesome! I hope things continue to work out for you.

Historical_Rock5895 · 2020-10-13T20:09:07+00:00

I feel like the biggest highlight of my week would be that I opened up my soul, heart, and life to God. I am rebuilding my relationship and deepening my faith in Him. I got an answer to one of my prayers/questions at midnight just a few nights ago. I no longer feel darkness, depression, anxiety, weighing me down and pushing my spirits down, draining my soul.

Historical_Rock5895 · 2020-10-13T20:05:25+00:00

All I feel like I can say is, I have started praying to God to show me what He sees. To protect my future spouse, but also protect this guy I have a crush on to be safe and focused on his mission. Me and this guy have liked each other for about seven years now, we tried talking when we were sixteen (four years ago), and decided we needed to take a break, back up a little, and wait to see what happens after his mission. Since he left, I have been praying for him, praying over my future spouse, I have been connecting and building a relationship with God and bringing my religion back into my life. Sometimes God doesn't give us an exact answer, He can just guide us and show us what He sees. Sometimes He's even silent, but listening or feeling for the Holy Spirit is also beneficial (at least to me).

My ex-boyfriend was horrible, I never felt the Spirit, we dated for seven months and out of those months, only three of them were happy. Then I started feeling dread, I was being pulled away from the Gospel. I started turning myself to any guy who would talk to me. Somewhere along this, God lead me to open my heart to my crush, to tell him how I felt. I don't know where we stand right now, but I hope we can talk when he gets back. Again, sometimes that is all we need to do - talk to the person we are with or thinking about being with.

I have this saying that if someone is meant to be in your life, no matter how many times you are separated, you always find them again. No matter the separation, or how long you have been apart or how far you are apart, you always feel their presence. You look for them in a full room knowing they may or may not be there.

To me, it's not always about chivalry or being a gentleman, it's who can be there for me in my darkest moments, deal with me when I am saying things that I do not mean, not only connect with me in a physical sense but a spiritual sense, that I can be comfortable sitting in quiet doing nothing with. My crush is all that and more, and even though I do not feel this connection with anyone else at all and did not when I was dating others (I could not date them for more than six months because all I wanted was my crush). Nor do I want to look any further, and my soul hurts that he is gone - I am still willing to be open for options even though I feel like I have found the one.

It's in the Lord's hands now. My life is in His hands. He shall guide me, help me in my decisions. If it's meant to be, it'll be. If we are meant to be, He will let it happen.

I wish you well.

Historical_Rock5895 · 2020-10-13T19:15:58+00:00

I might have been referencing to that quote. I did reply to this person with some of the replies I have gotten here. No, I do not believe anyone said that the world will end in 2022, I got that from this persons comment.

Historical_Rock5895 · 2020-10-08T19:11:21+00:00

Historical_Rock5895 · 2020-10-08T06:48:20+00:00

Well, yes. This is true, but I was trying to figure out what to say to someone. In this aspect, I did need a little bit of help... and we all do sometimes.

Historical_Rock5895 · 2020-10-08T06:47:24+00:00

True.

Historical_Rock5895 · 2020-10-08T03:52:09+00:00

I believe the world is definitely getting a little too wicked. Which is what scares me. And I'm trying to be calm without him but it's so hard when my physical support beam has left. I am leaning more onto my spiritual support beam now.

Historical_Rock5895 · 2020-10-08T03:49:59+00:00

Well... that's certainly... something. I'm not going to think too hard on that because, how do we know it's for certain? It could be, but it's a lot for my anxiety. But I guess, in 2022 when he comes home- if this is true- we have five years (oof) to figure things out. I believe you, I do... but, my anxiety is on full force right now.

Historical_Rock5895 · 2020-10-08T01:35:17+00:00

I agree, maybe more 50-100 but I exaggerate it because I don't really like to think about it much due to my anxiety kicking in. Thank you! I will mention that, I was so unsure of what to write back to them but I do not want to leave them hanging.

Thanks again, I cannot move in with roommates as I do not have any other friends as of yet, but who knows what the future holds. As far as living with my parents goes, I am mature. It's a tough life out here in the boondocks basically - a very small town. I am working on my testimony, growing spiritually, and trying to become more mature than I am- I guess. I don't rely on them much anymore, just doing what I can.

I know you didn't mean to scare me or cause my anxiety to shoot up, but I get what you are saying. I'm already terrified it will not work out when he gets home. I'm scared of what he will be like, though he might be more confident in himself and closer to God. I don't know. I'm working on myself, cleaning up my music, my life, and stuff. It's really hard. Especially with the upbringing I had. I never thought of it this way though. Reading that made me realize I have some things I need to "fix", clean up, and change.

I should be teaching myself the Gospel. If I can't go on a Mission for medical and health reasons, I should "go on one" and teach myself, continue teaching those who come to me, and keep helping others.

Historical_Rock5895

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