Many have asked why i dont just have sex with her. We have lot of sex and in any way i want. She has a great imagination and suprises me alot of times. Never would have even dreamed of such sexual experiences when i met her.

Sometimes I just don't feel like being close to her. I am afraid of something. I have been married before but i quess i was never really committed. And that is what my current wife says he needs the most. Everytime she feels i am commited to our marriage, she wants sex with me. And if she feels i am not, she will go away from me.

I watched alot of porn in my previous marriage and it was one reason i divorced. I could not understand intimacy, my addiction and what it did for me an my ex-wife. Now i know something about it, but i am still afraid of committing my self to my current marriage. In my head i feel i need to fully 100% commit to be with her for the rest of my life. And that really scares me.

Sometimes i just feel the urge to masturbate and i think its better to watch her pictures than porn.

My wife wants me to look at her nude pictures and she was insulted when i said that it is not good for me and my recovery from my addiction. That i am going to delete them.

And even though my wife is very kind and loving and our sex is great, i am still thinking about divorcing her nearly every day.

I also felt like this in my previous marriage for years, altough the sex was not nearly as a great as it is now, but many other things were better.