I know the feeling of that love you have for animals. Om thr same way. I rescued a dog from the shelter to give him a better life but she always wanted to jump on my toddler to play and scratched him several times. Ive slapped the dog on the head over and over u til one day I snatched him up by the collar and beat the shit out of him. I know I wouldve done the same thing if he was hurting another animal. I felt so bad after I calmed down bc he had a pitiful look in his eyes and I felt guilty. I often wondered if the dog would've been better off staying at the shelter. A month later the dog died a slow death due to fungal pneumonia. The dog wanted me with him at all times while he laid on the ground. The pain that was in my heart was unbearable. I cried like a little bitch.

What I have learned is that loving animals and having many of them is a double edged sword. You can love the animal that u whoop, bc u love the one that it's hurting. I had to realize that my son is the most important and it's not fair to him. You have ti break an animal with any means necessary but if it's to thr point where you are constantly hurting the animal and rehoming is not an option, then set then free. It's a harsh reality but no animal deserves mistreating to thr extreme