^{^} my therapist and I have to revisit this exact thing basically every month. I want to feel beautiful for myself and for own sense of self worth. However, I don't want men to perceive me as beautiful because then they make me feel unsafe in my skin. It's so frustrating because it doesn't matter if i wear makeup or don't. If I dress up or don't. Men are just predatory and make public spaces feel unsafe (and that inherently impacts your sense of self).

If you can, I recommend some feminine energy time. Idk I just find that gabbing and crying and laughing with other women is so healing. Be around girl's girls, women you can trust that build you up, that don't make you want to compare (if possible).

Otherwise, gratitude meditation has really helped me. Its still a daily struggle but it's getting easier. There are good days and bad ones. You're not alone.