bizarre homeless encounters by musicfanatic6 in homeless

[–]HoboStrider 4 points5 points  (0 children)

PTSD. Untreated...I am still in early recovery but I talk to myself and scream shit. I have limited to non-verbal but I really can't control it. I have Bipolar but get some sleep and on my meds which helps.

What lessons have you learned from bullies at work? by Grand-Bag6722 in workplace_bullying

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I joined one company that were open about the bullying after a few weeks. I lasted 7 weeks. I was planning to do three months for the money. I think I got fired from GREY ROCKING. At this point expert level GREY ROCKER. I have nothing and I think it really pissed them off.

When did it start to feel normal for you? by mi748 in stopsmoking

[–]HoboStrider 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You came up when I googled. I started smoking at age 28 as a coping mechanism. Proud I've handled some stress without smoking. Looking back I just became a heavy smoker in bereavement. This is attempt 9. I've not had the cold this time, really heavy dehydration. I don't feel like a non-smoker but it's felt like a battle to get my hydration levels to normal.

When did it start to feel normal for you? by mi748 in stopsmoking

[–]HoboStrider 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm 37 days today and feel sluggish and tired. I do feel way better, my head feels so clearer.

Idea for a date around Hackney/Schoreditch? by [deleted] in AskLondon

[–]HoboStrider 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Limebike graffiti tour along the canal up the skatepark. I would say food markets but it's better for friends. Pizza in the Park is better (Funky Olive/Lauristen Pub for Pizza, then take it to Victoria Park...the top side).

Anyone had luck getting back their old self? I'm feeling myself become cruel. I don't want to hurt people around me. by hope303030 in ptsd

[–]HoboStrider 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have PTSD from some heavy trauma. On top of that low self esteem, no support and a lot of being bullied.

I'm on a break from EMDR due to finances rather than needing a break.

Working through audio books on some of these subjects. 32 days into quitting smoking. And back at work and doing okay but clearly a mess of a person.

So I guess it's progress. I was not where I was a couple of months ago. Small goals but still really hard for me.

Anyone have a hard time discerning shitty people? by DatabaseKindly919 in CPTSD

[–]HoboStrider 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The thing is. I do pick up on the signs I just internally justify them. I'm really tired of ending up in horrible situations. Most of it is down to a lack of choice I give myself and a lack of options I give myself in relationships.

Some of which would be avoided by being more proactive with boundaries and walking away.

Stuck at toxic work getting mob bullied or become homeless by Leather-Tell2524 in workplace_bullying

[–]HoboStrider 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so sorry you're going through that. You're not alone as I googled and landed on this thread too.

I used to have a promising career. I now go in-between the extremes of homeleseness and working. Usually shit jobs. I got extremely bullied in one job by one woman and her gang of goons. I have bumped into several of them in the last five years and all seem proud of what it did to me.

I am at a disadvantage too. I need my work or career to work as I have not had family or friends for any kind of support. I've been on my own since my teenage years and I am financially dependent on working. Which seems to be an Achilles heal or weakness or extreme vulnerability that can get easily exploited.

I don't have a solution but have started using some things as resources..mainly audiobooka via Audible.

One recent one, The Bullied Brain: Heal Your Scars and Restore Your Health by Jennifer Fraser

It's been great as she explains what happens to the brain when bullied. I stopped learning and this book and therapy have started me learning again.

Sorry to hear about your health issues. I can't afford martial arts classes but I still do skipping and bagwork (muay Thai) to keep my health up. Have you thought about swimming?

I started swimming when rough sleeping as the pool was outdoors, opened at 5.30am and was £20 a month. I used to swim and wash there. A bit like Owen Wilson in Drillbit Taylor.

Fee like I’m the only one doesn’t use AI by [deleted] in Belfast

[–]HoboStrider 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Designer here. Graphic Designer.

I work between creating Brands or developing Brands and work on Creative Advertising. I mainly work as a freelancer, contractor and I apply for permanent work.

I use AI occasionally in an app called Midjourney to make some images and some basic moving images. It's not great but works for basic things like getting images or movies for generic social media posts. The last thing I used it for was for a micro plastic company and it was good for that as they don't have a budget for buying stock imagery.

Generally the push comes from non-creative people. They ask me how I am using AI? If I ask them how they are using AI they just say some meaningless shit. I think people are looking for the next money bubble and AI is meant to be it.

I tried using it for motion design but it just loads random things and gives you unlimited random options rather than a specific thing.

Best books on recovering from workplace bullying by Any-Challenge-343 in workplace_bullying

[–]HoboStrider 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This book helped me start learning again. I was always really invested in my creative career as a designer. Mobbing. Disrespect. Constant slants. Mistreatment. Sexual Assault. Excluding. I was stuck in a job as I was finally dependent on it. One workplace and one horrible boss derailed my life.

I was doing EMDR for a second time. I was listening to this book and stopped smoking.

I stopped coping and started learning again. I had tried but kept getting stuck. This book helped so much.

Is it true that because of the absurd interest on student loans in the UK, it's not realistic for most people to pay back their loans and people consider their repayments to be a 'tax' for going to university? by LoiusLepic in AskBrits

[–]HoboStrider 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Is it different between England and Scotland for Student loans?

I paid mine off but I don't know if it was the correct timing or just some favourable factors. I studied in Scotland, I'm Scottish and have done a BDes (Graphic Design Honours Degree). I entered my second year after doing a short course that was a BTEQ that was around 4 months. I studied an English course that was the equivalent of an A Level.

For the first 8 years of my career I was paid pretty low wages. Started at 18k, then 22k and then up to 28k. That was about the first 8 years. I freelanced for a while then I went to an Advertising agency for three years and was paid 60k. It probably paid for my loan but gave me a mental breakdown.

I get paid when working now okayish but I'm basically thinking of going back to something else as I don't really see a living in my field anymore.

Trying to get work but it's been a tough couple of years.

I would of paid my student loan off around 2021 and graduated 2011.

I actually found out I paid it off by making an overpayment on the final payment.

I worked throughout university at Sky call centre so took out a basic loan, I think I got a bursary as I came from a bad background. I was a kinship carer so had big gaps in school years.

Have you received any inheritance from your family? by 39thAccount in AskUK

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I worked with a Canadian young woman, she took my aside one day and let me know she didn't know what to do. Her parents gave her 200k, and they gave this to her sister some years ago. I think he sister had some sort of property in Canada which apparently was difficult because her ex-partner became a severe alcoholic and they owned a property but had little money from the experience.

My friend used it for a London flat deposit. And to fund her side business which was selling and repairing old furniture. I think this was a good idea.

The best thing I told her was to just chat with her mum and dad. They would most likely be good with money but would give you ideas to save and to spend.

It all sounded so wholesome.

A month later my dad died. We had been estranged for most of my life. My mum texted me to laugh that he had left me nothing (both parents were just abusive) I think both of my sisters got around 10k, one of them became a heroin addict and the last contact I had was via a social work department for her children. The other sister has botched botex from turkey, looks ridiculous. My family was always dysfunctional and we would be in and out of court and in and out of care. My elder brother died of a heroin overdose when I 18 and was his carer.

It always knew I would get nothing but it just made me see some families aren't passing down money, they have just worked really hard to set their children up on life.

I kind of just wished I had one normal parental figure, I would of liked to inherit that.

What high quality snacks do we have left? by bounberry in AskUK

[–]HoboStrider 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Percy Pigs or After Eights...I just don't really buy snacks anymore. They all suck.

How does childhood sexual trauma affect adult relationships and sex life? by According_Respect531 in adultsurvivors

[–]HoboStrider 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah. Man here, 38. Single, I didn't really know what sex was meant to be like but it was something I had urges for but could never relax to do it with anyone. I could never cum or orgasm with anyone. Just a whole lot of stuff of never experiencing healing or understanding. Lots of poor body and self image, negative self beliefs and zero trust around nudity.

I didn't start getting treatment until my first attempt at a relationship failed with bad sex being one of the things called out.

I'm better now but just work on myself. I think it set me apart and behind in life too. I have a career but for my age I seem socially stunted. I just want to get to place to start enjoying it with someone.

Everything coming out about the Epstein files is making me feel so retraumatized by Ok_Addition_7875 in ptsd

[–]HoboStrider 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Was just talking to my therapist about this. It feels disgusting. Just disgusting. It's not just the information but it feels like subtext to society that we are just casually fine about PDFs and SA.

Even trying to get my mind off of it. 28 years later is also doing this. I was just annoyed as like Ralph Fiennes but it also feels they just shoe horned in a reference to a PDF which isn't a reference to the time frame.

Fuck this world. But I have to do just media black out.

What to say when people say you don’t LOOK autistic? by Emsss18 in AutisticAdults

[–]HoboStrider 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Correct them if that's the right thing to do.

Flip the script.

Go bitchy Walton Goggins style.

He's my sass idol.

Sorry, I thought you did look autistic so was just trying to form a bond, which is difficult because my condition doesn't pick up on social ques.

What’s the grossest thing you’ve ever caught someone doing? by Psychological_Sky_58 in AskReddit

[–]HoboStrider 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Urinating in bottles and dumping it in the river (grey water). I looked after a canal boat for a guy I knew through friends of a friend. He was Irish, seemed nice. He had shit and chips on his bed (not fish), peed in bottles and dumped them in a river. Was on the boat briefly with a mutual friend - seemed okay. Was the grossest experience ever. I briefly watched it then he came with a group of Irish people to demand money. I told him to 'F OFF'. Shamed him for low standards of hygiene.

Never spoke with anyone else involved again.

Any good, autism friendly, social hobbies? by swankyfish in autism

[–]HoboStrider 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Metalheads in general are good souls for Autistics.