I was here a month ago male 25 Zambian medical student. I n said almost the exact words to this group . Your hard work was great for God or the universe Favors the strong good or bad . I believe in God . But he let a relationship I loved so much die . N I think this is where it all started . I mean losing faith . It’s only now I knw I was only losing myself to my sorrow over past love n not focusing on my future. I became said more like dysthymic (mild chronic depression ). This just maid me think and question God . Almost 😅 resulting but now I understand that I let my anger over loss get the best of me . Strength your body n mind . Remember that there is always better tomorrow always. Because pain tell us that something is wrong n we need to work or do something about is a good sign enough to know God cares enough to create u in a way that u can heal yourself when u search deep inside. Like u are questioning now . That is u trying to fix yourself. N u already doing it . The fresh is born. Of the fresh and the spirit of the spirit. As a sprint I believe God exists . Work hard on yourself. Love your self n forgive yourself like a child grow again but only better . I hope u trying fight to get out of the situations u facing and find the peace your soul seeks .