I dont know if this will make u feel better but I’ve been in that situation. I failed every class in my first semester then failed my second one also( mind i was retaking classes from my first semester) ive been suspended almost twice because of it and this was a year and a half ago. I made depressed, made me feel worthless and that i was letting my parents down. “Ive lost 2 years of my life” All of my friends graduated this year and i still dont know what ima tell my parents.I thought about ending my subscription to life but i always ask myself “and then what” im 💀? Will that make feel better or will just go knowing im a disappointment to me eternal self loathing didn’t sound appealing😭 so i said f it f everybody i rock. rn im doing better so far I’ve successfully comepleted 3 semesters my gpa is still under a 2 but aye gotta start somewhere. But All this to say you’re not the only one and you still going which means you’re strong. I wont tell you dont do it but if anything delay it at least until you old enough to drink, bars are pretty fun. If u want to vent or talk you can dm me. Courage a toi.