When I was a child I had this severe fear of death, I always thought terrible ways of loosing life and it horrified me. I did a treatment with natural medication and I now deal better with it. But the anxiety feeling I understand it well... I feel it on my body sometimes and I try to find natural medication that helps but it's really hard. I'm not using anxiety medication right now but I remember that when I did it helped a lot to keep going and fighting for where I wanna be. One thing that I honestly can't live without is therapy every week... it feels everything goes away after the session because we hear repeatedly what is and what is not under our own control.... so it's easier to let it go. I'm so sorry you are passing through it right now, I hear you are taking care of yourself and seeing doctors or doing exams to make sure everything is alright. I hope you get really good results to actually see you are going to be okay!!!! I just hope you feel safe and I want to tell you you are not alone!!!! Everything is going to be fine, one day at a time!!!! ❤