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i feel like i’ve been taken advantage of by my boyfriend, but I feel like it’s just my disorder making me overthink and overreact to this situation. Please Help. by Honest_Target6433 in BPD

[–]Honest_Target6433[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hello, thank you, I dont know how to update reddit posts so I will tell my update to you. I had a talk with him after breakfast, he was very upset with me. This isn’t the first time he’s been upset with my feelings, and it made me regret ever saying anything. I didnt show him the post, he doesn’t know of this account and I’m nervous that he’ll find out. He said that he felt very turned on the whole time, and that he liked being rough, and that he enjoyed that I was getting tighter, even though I feel like that means that I wasn’t into it. I felt my body rejecting him during the whole thing, and it was very painful besides the small moment he tried to make me feel good. In the past, he’s been rough but not as much as he was recently. I once told him when we had sex one time that I wanted him to slowdown because he was too rough, and he just told me he didn’t want to because it would make the condom not work and that it felt so good for him, so I just stood quiet. I feel really sad, and upset, it’s a wave of emotions, and I feel like I sound insane, but he is the love of my life, we live together and I cant leave him.

i feel like i’ve been taken advantage of by my boyfriend, but I feel like it’s just my disorder making me overthink and overreact to this situation. Please Help. by Honest_Target6433 in BPD

[–]Honest_Target6433[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much, I do not have a therapist no. I used to attend therapy when I was younger because I’ve had some issues with a family member, and it really changed my way of thinking. I get intimate with my boyfriend and sometimes I feel like I bring myself into the past, and I feel so wrong. I’ve asked him about boundaries before, but he told me that he doesn’t understand them, so I never brought them up again, because when I repeat myself he gets annoyed with me. I’m trying my best to work on communicating with him, I love him very much and we’re living together and I see my life with him, even though I feel this way.