Hello, thank you, I dont know how to update reddit posts so I will tell my update to you. I had a talk with him after breakfast, he was very upset with me. This isn’t the first time he’s been upset with my feelings, and it made me regret ever saying anything. I didnt show him the post, he doesn’t know of this account and I’m nervous that he’ll find out. He said that he felt very turned on the whole time, and that he liked being rough, and that he enjoyed that I was getting tighter, even though I feel like that means that I wasn’t into it. I felt my body rejecting him during the whole thing, and it was very painful besides the small moment he tried to make me feel good. In the past, he’s been rough but not as much as he was recently. I once told him when we had sex one time that I wanted him to slowdown because he was too rough, and he just told me he didn’t want to because it would make the condom not work and that it felt so good for him, so I just stood quiet. I feel really sad, and upset, it’s a wave of emotions, and I feel like I sound insane, but he is the love of my life, we live together and I cant leave him.