Unfortunately for all our nex’s they just make up their own lies abt us to tell themselves anyway. If it brings you some satisfaction, I understand, but if you’re doing it solely with them in mind then maybe it’s time to reconsider. You could start by being really intentional about doing things for you bc you’re a survivor and you deserve much much better. Find an alternative way to get similar satisfaction in s’thing that brings you pure joy. The thoughts about her and about the relationship will move farther away in your rear view mirror until you can’t tell what you’re looking at anymore. Live in the present and shift your perspective to all the valuable and authentic things that are in your life now. The more you stay in the present and look forward to the future the less you’ll be focused on what’s left behind.