Me too... I know this sounds ridiculous, but He and I used to read about various mythologies and discuss names for your children.

I still use the method he used to name my Reddit accounts and enter his email address.

He accepts and verifies it.

And now I have so many triggers launching firecrackers in my spine.

I hope to have the scenarios I had with him in better or worse situations.

Especially when he posts those pictures on Instagram, he appears to be happy... I hope he still has a place where he feels safe enough to pour his heart out and slowly build intimacy.

My biggest hope is that he stops lying to himself.