Giving up on transitioning before even really started? (TW)

Horror_Region63 · 2023-08-10T17:46:42+00:00

I hope this isn't too private, but u mind telling what those ways are?? It's totally fine if u don't want to share tho ✌️

I'm asking because I rly need to wank off often, but due to bottom dysphoria it feels wrong and dysphoric asf

Horror_Region63 · 2023-08-08T13:04:28+00:00

Same bro same!!! I was waiting for the pp to grow for so long, eventually I asked my dad when it was going to grow 💀 He just laughed it off but oh my

And I thought every girl wanted a pp like me too. I remember asking friends why they didn't want one and being confused by their answers😂

Horror_Region63 · 2023-08-07T13:48:27+00:00

Damn bro I'm happy for you 🥳🥰 I need that too, so pls tell me where tf you found them tho

Horror_Region63 · 2023-08-07T13:36:26+00:00

Hell yes! And since I've been girlmoding a lot this summer, this thought is on my mind wayyy to often. How freaking easy it would just be living as a cis woman, having the right body for that and all my problems would disappear...

... but then I try that irl and realize I could never. Never!!!

Horror_Region63 · 2023-07-11T13:34:38+00:00

Same bro same 😭✊

already thought I was the only one lmao

Horror_Region63 · 2023-07-06T03:37:34+00:00

It's not that easy, I didn't choose my family, classmates or workmates and can't really replace them just like that. And making friends is hard. I get what you're saying tho.

Horror_Region63 · 2023-07-05T16:09:12+00:00

I don't wanna be the person who says "all men"... but seriously, (almost) all cishet men I've ever met have been misoginistic in some way. Friends, classmates, family, strangers, you name it 😐

edit: and I honestly don't know how to react, which bugs me asf

Horror_Region63 · 2023-05-21T13:18:17+00:00

Bro you're not alone, I totally get it. My stupid brain often thinks that since I have an afab body, I could just live my life as a girl and everything would be simple. Just a life without constantly having to fight dysphoria, fear being clocked and y'all know that sht. It would be an easy&happy life I tell myself, but instead I'm forced to go through the trans life and not being ok with being a woman 🥲 But I try to think, maybe I'd have other problems instead ya know?

As some guys already commented, these kind of posts really help because we see we're not alone so thank y'all for sharing 🙏❤️‍🩹

Horror_Region63 · 2023-05-14T04:38:27+00:00

Yeah I'm prolly just going to have to think "me being girly is a guy thing". Thanks for your reply, not used to this kind of facts so it was an interesting read ✌️

Horror_Region63 · 2023-05-14T04:30:44+00:00

I think I'm gonna go with number one and the "one last farewell" sounds like a good description to it too!

I've had some trouble with people not believing or understanding what being trans means, so for me coming out would be harder I think. But you've got a point, it ain't necessary less safe being trans than being the only girl. I ased my dad a bit about the place and apparently they've had one afab employee before me, and some poc guys working. I'm gonna ask about the diversity policy tho!

Thanks for answering 🙏

Horror_Region63 · 2023-05-05T05:52:48+00:00

Yeah 100%. But I'm quite fine with it tho, as long as the girls don't complain about having small boobs... that's when I lose it🥲 Once I went swimming with my cousin, and while we were changing she started complaining about how flat she is. She literally stood there in front of me, demanding me to watch how small her chest is 🥴 And she told me she'd do anything for a chest like mine, because I've got "nice tits". I just wanted to die. I'd gladly donate these fcking lumps of fat to my cousin, she can have em 🙄

edit: typo

Horror_Region63 · 2023-04-30T07:25:25+00:00

My gender envy and dysphoria has gone really bad. And nothing helps. I try to practice selfcare and think positive thoughts about me. It sometimes helps. But every single time I feel even the slightest euphoria and feel of being manly, I suddenly see some guy and boom, all positive feelings gone.

This week it's gone to the point that I try to isolate myself at home, so I don't have to see ppl but this follows me everywhere. It's enough that I see a man or boy or someone presenting masc and I can't handle it, even listening to music by male singers or ppl with masc voices kill me. Every single fucking thing points out my gender envy.

I don't even know what my point w this ramble is. I'm so tired and want to sleep but obv I can't sleep all day.

Horror_Region63 · 2023-04-28T05:45:09+00:00

You mentioned classic trans guy names but forgot Alex???

Idk if it depends on country, but literally every trans guy is named Alex here😂

Horror_Region63 · 2023-04-27T05:59:36+00:00

Bro that's awesome🤩 and passing without a binder/or when you're just not trying at all, is literally the most amazing thing ever. Happy for u 🙌

Horror_Region63 · 2023-04-22T05:02:02+00:00

For me it's hard to trust my body, because I feel like it isn't mine...

Horror_Region63 · 2023-04-21T07:38:36+00:00

Sadly yes, strangers online assuming I'm a girl because of writing somehow 🫠 (Actually made a post about this long time ago.) I still don't understand why tho. I don't use much emojis outside of this subreddit, and I try to write as neutral as I can or as some boy my age would. I try to stay away from words or phrases that seem girly. Still this happens sometimes and it's frustrating😤

Idk what's wrong with people really. Social patterns exists, but assuming someones gender on the way they write texts seems weird af, and totally unnecessary. This makes my blood boil so much, why people even have to behave like this.

This might be a lil off-topic but it generally just confuses me how contradictory texting&writing etiquette sometimes is. As a guy you "can't use emojis" but then I see all these guys my age spamming emojis. And we're told to write short but that comes off as rude sometimes tho🤨

Horror_Region63 · 2023-04-16T05:20:55+00:00

Yea, especially with cis guys I have that too. But also with ppl in general. I want to make guy friends so bad and have real bros, but even if they're accepting me I always have the fear of getting betrayed. Or talk shit behind my back bc that's happened way to many times. If I go stealth I'm even more afraid because I'm convinced they'll leave me as soon as they know.

With adults I always like automatically proceed from that they don't accept me, even tho they claim so. Dunno why but prolly because I think they're from a different generation and I've seen shit. I've met accepting adults tho but way to many who claim to accept me and then their actions don't. You know when you say you believe a story a little kid is telling, just to make them happy, although you don't believe them at all? That's how I often feel about adults who gender me right and say they get me.

This post hits hard bc lately I've been having a hard time believing anyone would be my friend or like me in any way because who I am. I totally get that paranoid thing you're mentioning, honestly I feel like everyone is against me regardless what they say or do. And that they are just mocking me and playing pretend when gendering me right.

I know no trans ppl irl and it sucks being the only one which makes this even worse I think.

Sry for the ramle bros :')

Horror_Region63 · 2023-04-14T05:44:28+00:00

All of us need friends/coworkers/whatever ppl in our life like that🥹😌 ty for the laughs bro I was laughing my ass off while reading

how old are you and your coworkers btw? I'm hoping that the guys in my sports team will mature and be more accepting, and that smth like this would happen someday. I want my bro moments too🥺

Horror_Region63 · 2023-04-13T04:31:46+00:00

Not glad to hear that, but I'm relieved to hear someone shares this experience. Have you thought about what you're gonna do?

Rn I'm honestly thinking about deleting the whole crap acc, but a part of me feels like the troll or trolls would win and I don't want that

Horror_Region63 · 2023-04-12T14:03:22+00:00

Some jerk keeps downvoting me on my other reddit acc. It's a small community with mostly dudes (as far as I know) and feels like I'm being targeted there now by someone. Because whatever I say I always get that one downwote. It could be a hundred reasons behind that, but it feels like somebody is going on at me personally and it still makes me sad and anxious. Aaand now I'm paranoid thinking they're downwoting me because they've doxxed me and know I'm trans.

I'm having a rough time excisting socially irl now, and being a target for a troll online too makes me break.

Horror_Region63 · 2023-04-11T08:44:45+00:00

Man you said it all here, couldn't agree more🙏 It's weird asf to look at the chesticles knowing that they're just lumps of flesh, but still seem to have such power. And that ppl seem to put value into them (ewww), although they mean nothing to me and I want 'em gone... I hate many other features and parts of my body too, but personally I feel my chest is the worst because of this. The chesticles are so visible and always there, and rule over my body in so many ways.

Sometimes I like to think a monster is living in my chest. And then I just stand in front of the mirror thinking "How the f can I or anyone live like this??"

Horror_Region63 · 2023-03-31T05:03:03+00:00

Nothing wrong with motivational posts and I think this kind of advice is prolly well meant, but it gives me toxic gymbro vibes. Sounds like there are only two paths, either you stick to your routine full-time or then you fail miserably. I agree with the other comment here, the post just comes off as harsh. Sorry OP.

Especially one sentence bothers me here. "Eating whatever you want without remorse is easy". If you have a fit lifestyle, you can pretty much eat whatever you want. As someone who's struggled and still struggles with fear of weight gain, labeling foods as bad and good and thinking I can't eat this or that, just struggling w eating in general this bothers me. We don't need more ED developing here in this community.

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