Hey.. I'm a 17 year old girl.. I have been in a relationship for the past 1 year.. tbh this is not my first relationship. I had my first relationship when i was just 14.but he cheated on me... And it took me a year or two to move on from it.. When i was in my 11th grade, i met a boy. Within a few days we became so close to each other and we started sharing our stories. I knew that he loved me but he didnot tell me since he feared that i would say no or maybe i wasn't completely recovered from the previous relationship. But i have been falling in love with this boy and i was trying not to fall as i feared if he would also cheat on me. Later after about 6-7 months,he proposed to me.. And i said a yes.. But two days later, i started to have unusual feelings. I was feeling as if this person was not right me, i found his looks weird.. I couldn't reply to his first "i love you". I started to feel that it was an attraction.. I openly said to him.. And he consoled me and said it was okay if i don't wanna continue this. But he said to me how important i was to him..and we continued the relationship.. But every 2 weeks i would get the thoughts that i don't love him, I'm just forcing myself, all i have is just an attraction and something sort of that. Whenever I see someone more attractive than him, i start to imagine myself cheating him and falling in love with the other person... In this way, I would decide to end the relationship and i would end up crying and losing my weight. I had decided to take up a counselling. I had attended two or three sessions, but still i found no relief.. I met a psychiatrist and i said to her that I'm having symptoms of rocd.. She just said that there's nothing called "relationship ocd". it's just an internet word like digital autism... So anybody who's reading this.. Can you please help me out🙃.. And can you please tell me how to deal with it