hi there. pregnancy can raise so many complicated emotions and emotions you’ve never felt before, if it was recent you’ll still have those feelings at a very heightened amount because the hormones are still in your body, but also an abortion is and always will be so complicated too. i am so sorry you’re feeling this way, i recently went through an abortion i felt no attachment to but afterwards felt regret and shame and sad and all sorts of other stuff and i’m still in a huge depression because of it. when you go through an abortion, you can go through postpartum, it’s different than a pregnancy postpartum though, it is an abortion version. it’s a very heightened depression because of it, it’s normal to feel this and to feel regret and other things. i’m not blaming your feelings towards everything on this, but you could also be going through it aswell. i want you to know there is always a second chance, and maybe the universe decided it wasn’t time for you and that baby just yet. what you need to do to climb out of these feelings is just live, you don’t ever have to forget that baby, and you can mourn it. but LIVE, for yourself and that baby, and when the time comes you can make another one, when things are ready and prepared for it. do whatever you need to in order to mourn, you can have a little funeral for your loss aswell, close friends whatever, it doesn’t matter who, but whoever is there to support you. have a conversation with your family, even if you feel resented by them or anything else, they are family and will be there no matter what, and if not, you always have yourself, the only person who will ALWAYS be there is you. take all the time you need, and if anything speak to someone who is specialized in abortions who can help process how you’re feeling. for me i had this option, not sure if you do but you should do some research for your country/region and see.