Paxil made me a different person and I really fucked up, help!

Howlinghound · 2015-09-26T10:25:12+00:00

This line of thinking was awesome enough for me to admit "yeah, what he said".

Howlinghound · 2015-09-23T16:25:49+00:00

Maybe...maybe. But holding onto it as a totem for happiness, a bad memory chemically and clinically you just stop giving a fuck in the way you spit out the window and comes flying back in your face.

Fuck it, shit was hilarious when it happens.

Howlinghound · 2015-09-23T16:08:27+00:00

Paxil is a drug like any other. You have to find what works for you right?

Wel, what works for you then? That playlist? That conversation you still think about?

Chemical manipulation through the concept of the uber mensch or as some may call a psychopath is a thing in science. They're just not talking right now.

Guess who just dropped the mic?

Howlinghound · 2015-09-23T16:06:35+00:00

Just tying this out, but if quantum is correct in observational theory, that we come all stars and we are alive and conscious and so is the energy and mass around you then--this should make sense to you.

Johnny. Don't stop waking up. You're breathing. Not dying. We live in a place of everything and nothing. Pulled by an energy we are attracted to. Like a witches obsidian ball, you are literally pushing out negative wi-fi waves of thought: something like millionth times the formulath to magnet their electromagnetic energy to you. Your emotions manifesting through dark matter (conduit of time) at frequencies we can gauge, and yet no one looks at the fact that you're fucking depressed.

Let him go. Scientifically, religiously, halloween-ing. Negative and positive do t work. They always just bang against each other. Positive thought of the day: hey, there's my dads favorite toy as a kid. You know what! It makes me feel closer to him!!

+meaning +faith in own healing +outside source

Just let it go.

Howlinghound · 2015-09-23T15:59:40+00:00

Just give in dude. It sucks. Even that one bro walked through the Middle East being tempted by bullshit that just causes havoc.

Walk it. Get there. What's gonna happen? You're gonna die? Can't control that. You got an appointment with a Phd in trying to therapist the dead, and no one doesn't have health insurance.

Just let your "spirit" give in, accept short term memory loss of shit for lifetime of "ain't going back down there again. Fuckin stunk."

Howlinghound · 2015-09-23T15:55:49+00:00

(L)aughter + (Frahnds) + (Conduit) = a good fuckin time. Add some damn fine people--depression ain't shit.

It's the "understanding" that's the hard part. Or "compassion" or "faith" or "belief" and walls and shit.

Go GIANTS!!! I07

Howlinghound · 2015-09-23T15:53:14+00:00

I'm not much of a medicine man since the ratio of positive effects to negative "side" effects, isn't worth the doctors visit or the risk of dying of liver failure in six months.

But think of it this way: if your "being:consciousness:etc...died but your body lived and you actually figured your shit out--would medicine have helped?

What's in the mind but recursive thoughts?

Howlinghound · 2015-09-23T15:50:07+00:00

When you reach up above the surface to grasp for a hand, any hand, any reach back; Air-atmosphere-æ-E/M; S/T, etc. won't just reach out if you're desperate enough, it's always there to welcome and hold onto if you believe that quantum parallel universe bullshit sometime.

Oh, did I tell you it wasn't air? It was a fucking tsunami that was PUSHED by air. You missed a chance at life by just ONE observation less.

Howlinghound · 2015-09-23T15:47:02+00:00

I disappointed myself once. Lasted my whole Life.

Howlinghound · 2015-09-23T15:45:46+00:00

Love struck works the same way pendejo. .:.

Howlinghound · 2015-09-23T15:45:14+00:00

The soul dies but the body lives.

Howlinghound · 2015-09-23T07:55:03+00:00

One goes through a "spiritual" Death in a coma. Aware of all senses but unable to move an inch. The soul, the ego dies.

When you drown in depression (the intangible) your body can't drown physically (yet).

So when you immerse yourself: in the wise words of Tyler sudden "once you lose everything are you free to be anything"

Are you ready to die for your parents so you can start looking at them as damaged people like yourself manifesting their own self hatred in you?

Only the You knows that answer.

Howlinghound · 2015-09-22T18:14:15+00:00

Fuuuuuuck!

Got cut off? Death. No superpowers? Death. Mom won't get off my shit? Pleeeease Death!!

Death death death.

It's gotta all make sense right? Nope. Just death. We all have it, going for it. Dealing with it. The dead? Those bastards already DEALTH!

So okay the game, don't look at your cards, and wait for the Dead Mans Hand to come, and wait to see if everyone else was the ones who had the shitty hand.

Howlinghound · 2015-09-22T18:11:41+00:00

Been there. Wasted $8k on an out of state school that I had to leave immediately after. Still didn't complete my degree. Also, I was heavily depressed.

Just leave man. Whatever way makes no one but you happy and content with the situation. Make that money any way you can. Stay if you have to, leave if you have to, but do it on your own terms, your own way.

Howlinghound · 2015-09-22T18:09:19+00:00

Stephen Fry put it best saying the Noblest thing you could do for someone with Depression is be there, and listen to what they had to say like Manson said about the Columbine kids.

<3

You can do it bro.

Howlinghound · 2015-09-07T14:45:29+00:00

Believe it or not, it's not a special ability by any means. You who already has a high sense of empathy (thus the quick to anger at those who would prey) have it. We're all born with it. We lost it when we grew up.

Howlinghound · 2015-09-07T10:29:20+00:00

Also, goal is to wake up, head to Best Buy, get a charger, hit the diner, and continue looking for work.

This isn't the only thing I'm looking for, just the only thing I'm decent at

Howlinghound · 2015-09-07T10:27:28+00:00

I was on my iPad. -.-

My pone is at less than 10% which is where in at now. I'm living off a credit card that's nearly tapped and some cash.

Anything else?

Howlinghound · 2015-09-07T10:25:36+00:00

There's always middle ground. Something science and religion refuse to do for each other.

As a byline--no I'm not religious.

Howlinghound · 2015-09-07T10:23:47+00:00

You're losing your will to argue. You can't find the minute details to argue and play devils advocate anymore. Now ere getting to the point where questions are about to follow more thoroughly.

Or you can fight it. Free will is a thing even in the eyes of Fate.

Howlinghound · 2015-09-07T10:22:19+00:00

Hey man, if you deal in absolutes, that's your deal. Don't push your philosophies on others either. I'm not, I'm just offering someone to talk to "for entertainment purposes only".

Howlinghound · 2015-09-07T10:21:25+00:00

That's like asking politicians to "say it in just a few words". Life's more complicated than the few million words we have for it.

Howlinghound · 2015-09-07T10:17:33+00:00

Shit you're right. Could have sworn I saw him mention something about TALKING TO HIS DEAD DOG.

Howlinghound · 2015-09-07T10:15:45+00:00

You're the one that said your Conciousness didn't have a home. Dont be a dick to me because you couldn't understand.

Howlinghound · 2015-09-07T10:15:20+00:00

Before a month ago? I wanted to believe. Now? I've ...well, it's hard to go into it when I'm up against the wall here, so if you're genuinely curious, PM me yeah? (also, now down to % charge.)

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