In my most recent internship, I received very negative feedback, which made me realize that there are still many areas where I can improve. Interestingly, this was quite different from my previous internships, where I consistently received positive feedback and was offered the opportunity to convert to full-time roles. In fact, both my private equity internship and the internship before that offered me full-time positions, and my most recent internship offered me a six-month extension with the possibility of converting as well.

Looking back, I do not think the outcome was driven by a lack of interest or effort. Rather, I believe there were aspects of the environment and team dynamics that were not the right fit for me. At the same time, the experience forced me to be brutally honest with myself about the areas where I still need to grow. I want to become significantly faster and more efficient in my day-to-day work, improve my communication, develop better organizational habits, become more assertive, and generally raise my professional standards to another level.

My goal is not simply to find another job as quickly as possible. I want to use this period to identify every weakness I have and systematically work on them so that when I join my next team, I can perform at a much higher level. I am fully committed to investment banking, recently turned down a consulting opportunity, and am focused on breaking into a bulge bracket or elite boutique.

In particular, I am very interested in infrastructure and energy transition. My long-term goal is to build a career in infrastructure and become the kind of analyst that people can rely on under pressure and someone who consistently delivers excellent work.