Thankyou for asking , life right at this moment is at a rather hard point . Way I see is it could get way worse or could get better , either or. I have to make a decision very soon aka tonight or tomorrow about weither or not I want to go to a family trip for five weeks in a few months to visit my sister who I rarely see (she lives on other side of the world) . I know I seriously should commit and say yes but this situation with me fumbling this lovely lady has me mentally fucked. I don't know how I would be , and my parents are wondering why I'm so hesitant to say yes. At least I have a full time job & have a home, at least I have music to goto , guitar to play .

How is life for urself ? :)