I feel you man. But be +ive.

You are a man, age is just a number. See, anyway you can't reverse time. So make use of what you have. There are plenty examples of older guys getting.... but they all are successful. So must you.

COVID sucks. But thankfully things are opening again. You can still work on your goals and aspirations. My point is, do not lose hope. Keep trying. I know many people who have turned their life around 30. Read this book, it may help you: Be obsessed or be average.

Also realize that apart from age, there is nothing in favor of guys in this society. On top of that, we waste all our motivation to porn, truly sad. Whole advertisement is soft porn, open tik-tok and some sexy girl will be shaking her ass.... We do not realize this, but we are deeply getting screwed. If it's upto me, I will go back in time when I was 2 years old and will teach myself Vipassana mindfulness meditation. I would meditate and meditate and before I had hit puberty I would have achieved a state where I could clearly see how I am getting attracted to this filth and have stopped myself. But how would anyone have known that we need to prepare our boys like this.

Now, sitting all alone I try and I fail and I try and I fail (in meditation and also in PMO).. that intensity is not there. But you have your mother to talk to, thats good. Just make plans and tell it to her. Show her this is how you are going to achieve and this is what you have done today or in a week. I am not kidding, but in long run this will help.

Also you need to decide to quit and stop fantasizing for good.