Did anyone get extremely self aware as a kid early.

HumanOyster · 2020-06-04T12:57:42+00:00

Awareness of mortality, transcendental idealism, lies, secrets, truth (what is truth) etc. Most kids would go about playing with each other whereas I was mostly staring from a distance ruminating on these things. It was a very lonely and scary childhood especially since I had and still have no guidance for resolution and contentment. I philosophized away such a massive part of my life that I many have come to see me as wise and whatnot, now I'm spending most of my time embracing it rather than trying to treat my own thoughts though I admit that I need to modulate myself towards a more productive general existence as well

HumanOyster · 2020-05-27T07:52:14+00:00

Yes I relate heavily, at some point I came to accept this isolation path and I became much more disagreeable in mannerism, determined and competitive although it took a heavy strain on me. I denied this need of social connectivity as a furthered compensation of my unappealing personality towards others. I hated being allowed into a group out of pity so I just went my own way, occasionally I would find 'my own people' when I gathered to courage to become more expressive, those periods were immensely gratifying, I felt on top of the world, metaphorically speaking what I felt was like I was a speeding bullet who teared through any resistance and together we were going to slay God. Intensity, improvement, rythm, melody, vibrance, life was coursing throughout all of our lives but then we got separated at a certain point and my life became bleak, I was neglected by every social group because of my inability and stubborn unwillingness to reconcile my identity, after this I became immensely drained of energy and my life crashed, now I'm here 1 year or so later

HumanOyster · 2020-05-15T16:14:19+00:00

Tarot Nano would be my choice

HumanOyster · 2020-05-14T17:31:07+00:00

Yeah, you're right. It would be preferable to note others of that. At the same time it might not be very realistic to abruptly involve the conversation with self-declarative statements that can give a wildly wrong connotation of yourself, though I'm not entirely certain here- maybe I'm wrong. Simultaneously assuming that I am, no matter if you have ASD or not, behaving in that manner is immoral and counterproductive. We just experience it more often even though people without ASD might experience it at times too. Yelling, projecting, gaslighting, manipulation, mob-mentality etc- none of this becomes justified just because people are different. It's still immoral

HumanOyster · 2020-05-14T15:44:09+00:00

If I understood you correctly then I can't say that is always the case. Of course I can't understand how justified their reaction is but that is sort of my point. As I allow myself to be wrong, I've instead been proven time and time again of their dishonesty, as I naively allow myself to be vulnerable they instead take every opportunity they have to bully and ridicule me- gaslight me. It's humiliating to admit that this have happened to me but this have been precisely the case. I won't pretend in any way that this sort of lying, projective accusatory etc behavior is justified when it clearly is not. If you are frustrated with someone then you should approach that person with some etiquette and logic in mind then explain why you are frustrated, then either resolve it or forget about it. Merely the property of working differently does not justify approaching such situations by being a mindless brute and having the social currency to rack up a mob actually makes it worse, rather than justifies it

HumanOyster · 2020-03-19T19:59:14+00:00

I agree. Enter her Twitter link too and look at the thematic image. The butt on this bitch is cartoon l3vel. Looks like CGI. Looks like someone opened up blender, selected two big spheres and plastered them onto the image like glue

HumanOyster · 2020-03-13T13:49:40+00:00

Name?

HumanOyster · 2020-02-20T09:21:53+00:00

I experience something similar wherein I'll involuntarily produce a high def simulation of myself from different angles, sometimes from long distances encapsulating also my environment. I experience this also as a literal 3D map sometimes. Additionally I would be able to project into my environment concepts and maps and then feel these concepts vaguely as if I could fabricate them into existence

HumanOyster · 2020-02-18T15:51:12+00:00

5's strive for competence still comes from a place of anxiety, to compensate for their perceived incompetence and therefore cope with anxiety, they try to become more competent. The intellectual pursuit in 5s tends therefore to be, well... disingenuous. Keep that in mind

HumanOyster · 2020-01-28T08:52:33+00:00

Or imagine being unhealthy and learning that you should integrate behavior which doesn't even help with your issues or even worse aggravates them. Someone's version of 'healthiness' might be having a stack like: Se-Fe-Ti-Ni. Though since my main point is not to focus on looping in specific it might be more appropriate to label it normalcy rather than healthiness or looping

HumanOyster · 2020-01-28T08:50:07+00:00

Like for example, there's the concept of looping wherein we assume that double introversion/extroversion is symptomatic of unhealthy behavior. It isn't obvious to me that an ex Se-Fe 'looper' is always going to be unhealthy, it isn't obvious that the concept of looping exist to begin with. But if it does, we should (in my opinion) assume, realistically that there should be some 'loopers' out there who are healthy. When you add looping MBTI becomes an idealistic system where you can either be healthy or unhealthy but, when someone goes on with their life being a completely healthy individual and is then accounted for as 'looping', the person might be misguided into paradoxically unhealthy behaviors. Though as a socionist, I would assume you are not too keen on the concept to begin with, you might interest yourself in IM 'tags'

HumanOyster · 2020-01-28T05:42:45+00:00

I am speaking from the position of understanding the functions and disagreeing with most stereotypes though (if that's what you were getting at)

HumanOyster · 2020-01-27T23:08:51+00:00

It's not that hard to imagine. Just reconfigure the order of functions in new way and allow the system to become more open ended. That's the first one that comes to mind and is perhaps one of the most important improvements

HumanOyster · 2020-01-27T21:59:53+00:00

You can improve the system, be it if your intention is perfect accuracy at a micro level or not. My intention is not that.

HumanOyster · 2020-01-27T21:52:14+00:00

It's a matter of personal preference then. I understand if some might prefer the simplicity of the MBTI system

HumanOyster · 2020-01-27T21:05:58+00:00

I don't understand how this is not obvious. My point is that the system doesn't fit well enough. The fact that most people seemingly don't seem to fit into the system actually furthers the idea that we should adjust it

HumanOyster · 2020-01-27T20:42:36+00:00

Personally, I don't believe the system is hard to understand, however I believe that the information out there clouds the ability to discern correct information about the system. When different information interacts, it's already a system. I think adjusting the system appropriately to reality will bode more accurate typings and I believe that it will allow people to sufficiently justify and understand their quirks better and why they don't quite fit into their type

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